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What was your morning fix? v. Handful of pills, and sane again!

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ramblin said:
Dude, how the hell do you get a hold of so many benzos. I'm always on the look out for xanax, kolonopin, valium, temazapam, or whatever. I get lucky when i find 'em here and there. I seriously need them. especially now that i quit drinking. In fact, i find it amazing that all these people on bluelight have all all these wonderful pharmecuticals. Are half of them lying? Where are these doctors prescribing all this these good meds? Or where are these people selling pills.

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Drug users are very resourceful :)
 
ramblin said:
Dude, how the hell do you get a hold of so many benzos. I'm always on the look out for xanax, kolonopin, valium, temazapam, or whatever. I get lucky when i find 'em here and there. I seriously need them. especially now that i quit drinking. In fact, i find it amazing that all these people on bluelight have all all these wonderful pharmecuticals. Are half of them lying? Where are these doctors prescribing all this these good meds? Or where are these people selling pills.

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I have a lot of mental issues and so I can get large scripts for anxiety medication if I want to (I can't imagine the length of my medical chart if it were ever assembled just for psych history alone). There are also lots of people selling there scripts to make ends meet. These people don't make much for there pills. A richer man would rather have the drugs. I could get maybe 5 bucks for my mg of klonopin that I take every day. Obviously not even close to worth it for me and I'm no rich man. Or the third option is ordering over the internet. I never fucked with that but I did know a guy who knew a guy and there were allegedly occassional orders of OP10's and Xanax bars 1000 at a time. So while I would never even get involved in any of that shadyness or anything that represented a lot of drugs on the street. A small fraction of which made it into my hands. But as long as you can avoid benzos is good because its easy to get on them for life. Which is were I think I'm at.

My morning fix:
7g of kratom
a bowl pack of an indica and a sativa strain mixed together
.325mg clonazepam
a touch of pinot grigio

Sick as a dog but that combo will make any dog feel better.
 
Kava + Valerian root capsules (forgot the doses). Kinda feels like a poor man's benzo.
 
Its my day off today! I've been trying very hard to limit my use of benzos (inb4 etiz isn't a benzo, yadda yadda) to night time ONLY and only allowing myself a certain amount to take. However this morning when I woke up I was feeling a bit more anxious than usual, so I popped 1mg etiz and smoked a bowl, now the shaking hands have stopped and I feel normal and I'm debating taking another even tho I know its a bad idea. I got these pills coming in today, supposedly each has 1mg alprazolam plus an unknown amount of gabapentin. I love gabapentin for generalized anxiety management and hope to use it to come off these benzos, but another 100mg etiz will be arriving anywhere from tomorrow to Thursday...so I'll have a decent stash I can taper with. Tapering with a short acting benzo is friggen difficult tho, so I'm hoping the gabapentin will help when I order some. The fact that these gabapentin pills also have alpraz in them is extremely counter productive for my interests (even tho they feel fucking great), I wish the gaba and the alpraz were arriving separately. Oh well I guess I'll just place an order for some gabapentin today....got some kratom and mxe on the way as well. Also need to re-up on bud, as I'm running low. I seem to always be running out of pot lol
 
little bit of heroin. trying to taper. Just did enough to where I'm like, 80% well. The urge to do more is overwhelming though - really down today. A few more snorts and I could feel better. Yet part of me doesn't want to. I really do want to be clean, if I could stop heroin right now and not be sick, I would and I'd never touch it again.

Everything is all fucked up and I don't know if I'll ever be able to sort it all out.
 
100 mgs methadone
Some cigarettes and a hella dank bowl of bud I've been smoking on since I woke up.
 
^gooe luck, BlueSaffron, I'm rootin' for ya :)

For me it was some valium, a cup of tea, and a cigarette. don't have weed today, don't have a lot of money really either. Good thing I have work tonight.
 
BlueSaffron said:
little bit of heroin. trying to taper. Just did enough to where I'm like, 80% well. The urge to do more is overwhelming though - really down today. A few more snorts and I could feel better. Yet part of me doesn't want to. I really do want to be clean, if I could stop heroin right now and not be sick, I would and I'd never touch it again.

Everything is all fucked up and I don't know if I'll ever be able to sort it all out.
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cant you get on subbies or methadone (methadoned not a great option i know) to taper with?
Ive heard some encouraging accounts for a very short bup taper to come off heroin.

Try to be kinder to yourself as well.lol
Your coming off one of the most addictive substances known to mankind, its hard enough. without mentally beating yourself when you have a hard day.
You will get tough days and you will slip at times...but you just pick yourself back up the next day and start again.

Your posts show that your an intelligent, knowledgable and strong willed lady...im confident you can beat this.
 
Thanks bigfan :)

bunge said:
cant you get on subbies or methadone (methadoned not a great option i know) to taper with?
Ive heard some encouraging accounts for a very short bup taper to come off heroin.

Try to be kinder to yourself as well.lol
Your coming off one of the most addictive substances known to mankind, its hard enough. without mentally beating yourself when you have a hard day.
You will get tough days and you will slip at times...but you just pick yourself back up the next day and start again.

Your posts show that your an intelligent, knowledgable and strong willed lady...im confident you can beat this.
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I've been debating methadone for a couple months. I was on it before and did really well til I got down to like 13 mg, I tapered way too fast and was pretty sick, and ended up using a few days after my last dose, and I've been using ever since (this was last Nov). My Dr. doesn't think bupe is a good idea because I have weird reactions to some medications - she doesn't want me to try it, and I trust her, so I'm not going to. So it's meth or cold turkey or H taper.

Maybe I should get on methadone, and just do a 21 day detox. It's not the physical symptoms I can't take, it's the depression. I don't want to do anything, I'm tripping about my relationship when I most likely don't have a reason to. At least methadone would regulate my moods and let me come off it slowly. I really wish I'd just ridden it out when I came off it in November - I probably would be feeling fine right now. Tapering H is HARD. I keep thinking "Just give it a few more days, and really try this time".. but I've been saying that for the past two months. At some point I need to admit it's just not working.

The guy I'm seeing gets a month vacation starting June 2. If I do a 21 day detox I would get off on June 2. We've been planning to get together and spend some time, so maybe it's perfect timing - I'd be busy with him when I get off and distracted from any lingering withdrawal symptoms.

thanks for the encouragement bunge, I really appreciate it. :)

eta: I'm getting on methadone tomorrow.
 
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bunge said:
Some people on BL will be buying off the street or have blagged the doctor but the majority live with serious pain and/or mental health issues and geniunely need those meds.
The reason you might be strugglng to get a benzo script could be your history of drinking.
Alcohol and benzos affect similar areas of the brain and so a bad history with one often ruins chances of getting the other.

OT: 60mg DHC
300mg pregabalin
feeling a little slow today...think im still feeling the blueberry i was smoking until sunrise....it was just too tasty to put down.lol
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SkAnK'd said:
180mg DHC
5mg diazepam
Coffee and a little spliff.
Basically my morning fix isn't enough!!!
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I feel ya just cos you wish you were like I was last night
 
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