i've been clean of everything 'cept weed and ambien for the past week or so (long time girlfriend and I split last week. made a concious effort to avoid opiates and such because I knew if i hit that comfort zone i won't come back). I was given a couple hydros yesterday. made me feel dandy. now i'm sad that noone is getting anything and my cousin only has enough of his suboxone to last him until he gets his refil on the first.
weed, coffee, and 1200mg gabapentin. will probably add some good 'ole tobacco and ambien later. I've been curious about plugging ambien for awhile. if i eat 10 mg, blow 10mg, and smoke some bud after I take my gabas, it feels very similar to the ass-end of an opiate (namely a solid dose of oxy) except burns like a goddamn viper in my nostril. start nodding out with a cigg in my hand, come back, realize half my cig is gone, proclaim that my cousin is a dick for smoking my cigg....then quickly forget and get distracted by TV.