Have a script for clonazepam 3mg/day- zero recreational value IMO, but therapeutic in that keeps me from killing someone/myself or going crazy when not on another benzo. However, average daily diazepam equivalent climbed from around 90mg/day to over 350mg/day in just a lil’ over 3 weeks (and I’ve been on benzos a LONG time, this was just stupid overkill 
)- add to that, on Suboxone, and had gotten of schedule… so it was time for a 10-day quick taper followed by a detox, by the time it’s time for one of those I simply sleep for a solid 3 days, no food or water, np as I’m out cold ![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
SO…
Came out of my detox slash “long sleep” day before yesterday, since zero bupe on mu receptors tried some kratom for the first time- not so much some as quite a bit really- it was pleasant, but doesn’t touch even when I’ve come off bupe and taken 2400mg of DHC in a day. Regardless, yesterday (which is still today to me as didn’t sleep) instead of dosing Sub at 8am I waited till 8pm- hence up all night.
Rather than 16mg sublingual (scripted 24mg, yikes), I went with plugging, 12mg Sub then 8 later, not anywhere close to the “almost full agonist” effects I used to get ("back in the day") but nevertheless pupils pinned and full of energy, plus the type of happiness/euphoria that an actual antidepressant should give you 8)
No clonazepam in the am prior to Sub dosing, instead a mere 50mg diazepam (yea my tolerance is down!
) But received a gift and knew I wouldn’t sleep anyway, so at 2am I took 600mg cimetidine then dosed 48mg bromazepam 45 minutes later.
About 3am 45mg temazepam.
At 3:30am (I like 150mg but used restraint ) a 45mg shot of midazolam, nothing like 150mg but still nice 
And now it’s a few minutes past 8am, technically the next day… what’s great is I’m far from “fucked up” in the nodding falling down etc. sense, I simply feel nice like it’s a new day won’t miss the sleep perhaps a little extra buproprion if needed and thinking is clear perhaps I wouldn’t want to take the GRE again
but I can certainly go downstairs, make some (good) coffee, eggs, bacon, and toast, then figure out what the fuck is wrong with the downstairs toilet, go to Lowes get the parts and get it fixed 
What more could I ask for? That IS rhetorical FYI
)- add to that, on Suboxone, and had gotten of schedule… so it was time for a 10-day quick taper followed by a detox, by the time it’s time for one of those I simply sleep for a solid 3 days, no food or water, np as I’m out cold SO…
Came out of my detox slash “long sleep” day before yesterday, since zero bupe on mu receptors tried some kratom for the first time- not so much some as quite a bit really- it was pleasant, but doesn’t touch even when I’ve come off bupe and taken 2400mg of DHC in a day. Regardless, yesterday (which is still today to me as didn’t sleep) instead of dosing Sub at 8am I waited till 8pm- hence up all night.
Rather than 16mg sublingual (scripted 24mg, yikes), I went with plugging, 12mg Sub then 8 later, not anywhere close to the “almost full agonist” effects I used to get ("back in the day") but nevertheless pupils pinned and full of energy, plus the type of happiness/euphoria that an actual antidepressant should give you 8)
No clonazepam in the am prior to Sub dosing, instead a mere 50mg diazepam (yea my tolerance is down!
) But received a gift and knew I wouldn’t sleep anyway, so at 2am I took 600mg cimetidine then dosed 48mg bromazepam 45 minutes later.About 3am 45mg temazepam.
At 3:30am (I like 150mg but used restraint
) a 45mg shot of midazolam, nothing like 150mg but still nice And now it’s a few minutes past 8am, technically the next day… what’s great is I’m far from “fucked up” in the nodding falling down etc. sense, I simply feel nice like it’s a new day won’t miss the sleep perhaps a little extra buproprion if needed and thinking is clear perhaps I wouldn’t want to take the GRE again
but I can certainly go downstairs, make some (good) coffee, eggs, bacon, and toast, then figure out what the fuck is wrong with the downstairs toilet, go to Lowes get the parts and get it fixed What more could I ask for? That IS rhetorical FYI
