What to do now

[CalicoCatLover]

@7...

 

[lost weekend]

Every single day, I'm verbally abused by ignorant trash. What am I supposed to do. I feel violent. I wouldn't mind beating the shit out of someone. They don't know how to take things seriously. They just repeat ignorant garbage at me. Should I take a swing?

No violence if you have not had it installed into you at a young age will ultimately make you feel bad ,even though it maybe the moral thing to do at the time
But I know you have had a tough life

 

[CalicoCatLover]

 

[lost weekend]

Havnt seen that guy in ages

 

[CalicoCatLover]

I swear to fucking God you will rot in hell for not caring about the real victim. You abuse your victims until they're retarded and you're a NAZI

 

[Chaurus]

I swear to fucking God you will rot in hell for not caring about the real victim. You abuse your victims until they're retarded and you're a NAZI

Take it easy, @CalicoCatLover.

 

[RedRum OG]

I'm a TI, targeted individual electromagnetic which is why I sound insane. Please just ignore my apologies

If you are going through a great challenge and struggle, which it sounds like you are, I know drugs make it feel more comfortable, but they are almost guaranteed to negatively affect your ability to deal, and thus the outcome.

Im not saying it's easy, or that I ever took that advice in the past, but I promise you, a lot of problems find a way of solving themselves once you are grounded, non reactive, and clear.

 

[CalicoCatLover]

Ive been off of my Klonopin for so long....who knows.

What else is a stupid global wide campaign of hatred and violence but a Nazi. Each idiot agreeing with the next so there is no variable.

 

[CalicoCatLover]

Go ahead and explain the rave to me again. Tell me I wanted it. Explain the entire nfc. I feel sorry for you. All you can do is claim I am you.

 

[CalicoCatLover]

Framing a victim is wrong. You have no right to put me in there with that thing and tell me how to dress. Boswell wasn't being compromised what's your excuse for filming that

 

[CalicoCatLover]

You know, I knew how to post on myproana. I'd share too much about my piece of shit life and then delete it. There was the hydrocodone deal incident, I felt terrible about it. I was drunk and trying to take cold showers, my boyfriend had been arrested. Felt terrible. What the fuck is the nfc, exactly. I would have . ..idk. Blocked myself? Told myself off? You're all stupid. Jonathon. Are you serious. His little story. That's not what happened. Why would he be killing me

 

[placebonaut]

Ive been off of my Klonopin for so long....who knows.

just happened to read this whole thread in 1 go, you sound in a bad way

are you prescribed anything other than Klonopin? why did you stop taking it?

is there anyone you can talk to?

If you are going through a great challenge and struggle, which it sounds like you are, I know drugs make it feel more comfortable, but they are almost guaranteed to negatively affect your ability to deal, and thus the outcome.

wise words right here

 

[CalicoCatLover]

Turns out my best friend....is not my friend at all. Wtf tho

I had another best friend...lived in Seattle. Messed that up.

Anyway I'm ashamed of myself, I'm going to try to stop posting crazy shit okay

Think of something calming....

waterfall

cats

fidgets

 

[placebonaut]

Turns out my best friend....is not my friend at all. Wtf tho

been there and it sucks

I had another best friend...lived in Seattle. Messed that up.

I have a long list of relationships I've fucked up, and now massive trust issues so don't let people in, I did grow from it though, it doesn't define you.

Anyway I'm ashamed of myself, I'm going to try to stop posting crazy shit okay

no need to be ashamed of having feeling.

post all the crazy shit you want.

now, talk to us about meds, we might be able to help

 

[lost weekend]

Ive been off of my Klonopin for so long....who knows.

What else is a stupid global wide campaign of hatred and violence but a Nazi. Each idiot agreeing with the next so there is no variable.

I've been off it for just over 4 months ,dream about it most nights but they are always blue for some reason

 

[lost weekend]

Turns out my best friend....is not my friend at all. Wtf tho

I had another best friend...lived in Seattle. Messed that up.

Anyway I'm ashamed of myself, I'm going to try to stop posting crazy shit okay

Think of something calming....

waterfall

cats

fidgets

Are you on any meds ,are they helping you

 

[CalicoCatLover]

I'm taking paxil and abilify right now. I don't want to talk about it, I'm not on my Klonopin right now. So there's no real chance of mental health. I think the paxil works because I was given some by my ex boyfriend and I took a shitload of it before work and felt slightly euphoric and tingly. Stimulated. I figure it meant it would help so now I take a regular dose.

 

[paranoid android]

I'm taking paxil and abilify right now. I don't want to talk about it, I'm not on my Klonopin right now. So there's no real chance of mental health. I think the paxil works because I was given some by my ex boyfriend and I took a shitload of it before work and felt slightly euphoric and tingly. Stimulated. I figure it meant it would help so now I take a regular dose.

If you arent rxed paxil dot take it it can cause mania which might explain your symptoms

 

[CalicoCatLover]

If you arent rxed paxil dot take it it can cause mania which might explain your symptoms

I took like 20 or 30 of them...

 

[lost weekend]

I'm taking paxil and abilify right now. I don't want to talk about it, I'm not on my Klonopin right now. So there's no real chance of mental health. I think the paxil works because I was given some by my ex boyfriend and I took a shitload of it before work and felt slightly euphoric and tingly. Stimulated. I figure it meant it would help so now I take a regular dose.

I don't know much about modern day anti depressants but be carefull