Haha, meth will laugh and mock any attempts at avoiding the PAYMENT. See those of us wishing to take the blue pill, leave everything we know behind and stare into the abyss for a short time must pay the ferryman, so to speak. Such a precious glimpse into the realm of Gods and Truths for even the smallest chance of making some sense of it at all, comes with a price. A small price some say, a piece of your very soul. This separation and loss is the torment you feel as it gets torn from within your core. Some even say they can feel the bugs and creatures and every vile sickness made flesh crawl on and inside their skin. This happens very close to the moment of separation.
These loathsome companions are the only thing we really know about the collector himself, but it is known that the PAYMENT must be tolerated and accepted as just and without complaint or some believe the collector may show himself to you in punishment for your disrespect and this is beyond a mere mortals ability to fathom, driving the soul into eternal madness in an eternal dance at making sense of something beyond understanding. WE keepers of these truths have come to accept the PAYMENT as a vital obstacle to minimize the chances of dark truths being discovered by a hapless soul unprepared for the burden. PAY the price, for the rewards are far from a fair bargain. Your time draws near now, have faith and pray the collector does not find you wanting.
Should you chose not to heed these warnings then know that there is rumor of a way to avoid the PAYMENT, why and how is not known but this secret method, discovered in manuscripts of the OLD WAYS now lost to us is said to be found through certain sorcerers of the healing arts and can be dispensed if they consider your worthy. Simply ask for SEROQUEL, the name given this rare gift but beware, easy access to the void without PAYMENT has driven many mad, penniless and trapped by the obsession forever, never truly free from the eternal pull of the deadly embrace of all knowing all seeing madness. May your soul remain yours for as long as you remain worthy my child.
You can learn more about this gift via this manuscript (post at the bottom) :
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/607680-The-Kratom-(Mega)Thread-v2/page28. A rare insight into this topic gifted to us by the void through a wise prophet sharing his truths with this broken twisted world. May it bring you the answers you seek.
And lastly my perfect tonic for any anxiety, comedown or the return of any glimpses at reality, pain, life and other distractions to feeling only bliss and the void, is to take another line. On a serious note i find the perfect dose somewhat difficult to attain. Its somewhere after low doses where any unpleasant physical sensations remain (you should only feel warm with the joy of a light refreshing breeze while at the same time cool, like crisp water cooling overheated flesh) and anxiety and any form of worry whatsoever remain but before manic euphoria remain when madness starts creeping in delusions of godlike abilities begin whispering in your mind, and also those annoying vaso symptoms. These latter symptoms of to much seem about 1/3 g dose and to low seems about the first 2 small lines. Perfection lies somewhere within day 2 (having started day 1 evening) and possibly 1/6 of a gram.
♥