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What motivates you?

At my age (in my 80's) the things I look forward to are completely different than when I was in my youth; it is very important to keep re-inventing yourself so that you may be old, yet feel young. đź‘Ť

This goes a long way to maintaining ones ability to look forwards to things :cool:
 
Raya22 said:
At least I know from my personal experience, that something big happened in my life that caused my depression to spiral. Not really being able to change it now causes it to continue
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the thing with unchangeable things is to learn to accept them as something that's there but doesn't require much attention. because no amount of therapy or medication will make them go away.
at least that's what my last mental health doctor said to me. his (translated) words: "nothing we can do, you're terminal"

Raya22 said:
Whatever helped before, can you reinvent this time around?
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i just stopped thinking about the why something happened, and what kind of experience made me what i am and stuff like this. it helps with stuff you can change, but it does not with stuff that just is and no power in the universe can make go away.
and yes, i reinvent myself quite often. i have always done this, but now i put more thought into it.
 
to hold on and keep the spirit to be over me constantly and protect me from the evil forces that roaming around...to have my inner peace,to battle my fear....which means to battle and win over myself.....to understand and learn to read the signs of life....to move forward.....to better state of mind.....to clean my self from impurities-bodily,mentally and spiritually....to be a better person and to help and give hope
 
Cheshire_Kat said:
At my age (in my 80's) the things I look forward to are completely different than when I was in my youth; it is very important to keep re-inventing yourself so that you may be old, yet feel young. đź‘Ť

This goes a long way to maintaining ones ability to look forwards to things :cool:
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u got all my respect sir....every ur word weights just on it's place
 
I’m looking forward to moving to a new city to work a great job soon, and these nitric acid burns (I was stupid and didn’t wash my hands until a couple minutes later because I was trying to finish making a solution first) finally are starting to peel off my fingers.
 
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arrall said:
I’m looking forward to moving to a new city to work a great job soon, and these nitric acid burns (I was stupid and didn’t wash my hands until a couple minutes later because I was trying to finishing making a solution first) finally are starting to peel off my fingers.
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Congratulations on the new job!
 
I'm looking forward to Thanksgiving also. My son is cooking the turkey which makes me happy.
 
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paranoid android said:
I felt so purposeless when i came out of the psych ward it was fucked. Now i actually look forewrd to shit. Im looking foreward to xmas and the food and everything that comes with it.
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That’s awesome!!
I’m really glad to hear that.
Haven’t seen you around in voice chat in a few weeks but I hope you’re doing well!
 
arrall said:
That’s awesome!!
I’m really glad to hear that.
Haven’t seen you around in voice chat in a few weeks but I hope you’re doing well!
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Ya when i got out of the psych ward i was in bad shape both mentally and physically. I had really bad PTSD from being in solitary. I was 225lbs of fat and as soon as i got out i hit my coke dealer up right away. I was doing huge shots of coke and when i finally seized up i was shooting about a 1/3rd of a gram of coke. Even after i had a seizure i kept doing it but i stopped doing it when fent started to show up in the coke here. My dealer doesn't test his coke either so im not taking that risk. Also i think i kinda got as high as humanly possible o coke without having a stroke or dying.

I have come a long way as i lost all the weight i gained on antipsychotics and psych ward food. Then about a year and a half ago i started lifting weights and am now in the best shape of my life. I couldn't curl 50lbs dumbbells in my 20's but i can now. I am now 200lbs and most of that weight is muscle. I am also on testosterone replacement therapy and even though i only started it about 9 weeks ago i am already seeing improvements. I have alot more energy now.

Ive been on VC a few times in the past week but usually late at night as i am out of my zopiclone right now lol
 
Raya22 said:
I saw this thread a few days ago and have been thinking about it since. When not much interests you because of how bad the depression is, but you have the depression because or in part of, not having much of a purposeful life how do we get past this? I struggle with this constantly. The couple things I used to look forward to I still do, but it just makes me sad because I don’t have the ummpfh to actually put it into action. If I try to push past that it just feels awful and not good.

Can anyone else relate to this? Even a little?
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the neighbor's backyard was cleaned out yesterday and there some plants that need to go. i asked the gardener if i could have them, and he will transplant them today.
i get new plant babies!!!

i also found an old book (three, actually) i have been wanting to read again for quite some time now, so i'm looking forward to start with part 1 later on.
 
lecroute said:
the thing with unchangeable things is to learn to accept them as something that's there but doesn't require much attention. because no amount of therapy or medication will make them go away.
at least that's what my last mental health doctor said to me. his (translated) words: "nothing we can do, you're terminal"


i just stopped thinking about the why something happened, and what kind of experience made me what i am and stuff like this. it helps with stuff you can change, but it does not with stuff that just is and no power in the universe can make go away.
and yes, i reinvent myself quite often. i have always done this, but now i put more thought into it.
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Yeah, now your mission now is to infiltrate Earth, and try to blend in with the humans and their tiny little minds.

Too what purpose: I am not sure yet but I am on too her. Yeah that's right I know, you are up to something.
 
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