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What Kind of Heroin/Opiate user are you?

1) 20, Athens Greece.
2)Heroin
3)Once a month, Im planing to totally quit using 2 months from now.
4)My ex was an ex heroin addict. When talking about heroin, she was like "Never try that, but this would be the best expiriense of your life". In general I think she exaggerated about it, but it's a welcome break from using alcohol. I like that when on H I can have a nice time even when Im alone and have nothing realy good to do, but it's also great when I have a day full of parties, sex and other enertaing stuff. It's like I enjoy everything more. Also I like the method of taking it...u know chasing the dragon.
5) Most of my friends are potheads, some are occational heavy drinkers.
6)Smoke.
 
Massachusetts

I don't even like opiates but I've had habits, been on subs etc.

I guess they're just easy to use daily because they're relaxing with less side effects than other drugs.
 
I use it for pain relief only, opiates IMO isn't the drug I would want for partying. I rather have coke.
 
Man in the Dark said:
You know it's funny that you say that about being a better Father and husband. It's so true taking my opiates makes me more of a pleasure to be around and I actually don't mind being around my wife and son as I have some pretty severe PTSD and just a bunch of overall issues.

I didn't mean to hijack the thread but I think it's pretty interesting how opiates have an effect on behavior, in a positive way.
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Yes I'm with you. When I'm sober I get irritated and angry really easy, get bad mood swings, I get stuck doing one thing whole day (like watching porn or surffing on net) and this is not caused because of drugs, I was this before even tried drugs. But because current war on drugs Im not going back to daily opiate use, if they were readily available from pharmacy with cheap prices any time I needed I would most likely use daily again, I cant take risk that one day I cant get my dose and go WD. Problem with opiates is when you run out of opiates.
 
eh, why not?
1. Whats your age and your geographical location?
24, London, England

2. What is your experience with opiates, which ones do you use?
First opiate was co-codamol 30/500 (CWE)
there's not a lot of choice in the UK compared to the US - i stick to just heroin, ill take an Oxynorm if i can get one, but i prefer h

3. How often do you use opiates?
Daily. Oh shit, daily.
I'ma heroin addict.

4. Why do you use opiates?
The usual; to get up in the morning, to put my shirt on, to eat, shit (ironic, i know), to read my books and to talk to friends and family and most importantly, to forget.

5. What kind of drug scene are you in?
an odd one.
i have my normal friends who sniff mephedrone and ketamin on the weekends, and i have my homeless crew who i smoke crack with.

6. Also, what kind of administration do you use?
i smoke my h.
 
Whats your age and your geographical location?
25, in Madrid but from Dallas

2. What is your experience with opiates, which ones do you use?
I went full on out with heroin after I graduated high school, lots of tumultuous shit happened... Relationships, busted.for selling weed, n more.

3. How often do you use opiates?
I moved away to get away from.it all. Been clean a year.and a half from black.tar but tries some stuff here but it doesn't even.compare...

4. Why do you use opiates?
My thing was.speedballs. there's great coke.here also but just rrally miss the quality tar that seems.impossible to.fimd here.

5. What kind of drug scene are you in?
A.lot.of bud growers now. Ocasiomally party.and.go.to raves. ketA, x, bad speed powder (not like speed back in the us but much more less potent. ) And coke

6. Also, what kind of administration do you use?
Oral, nasal mostly and rarely now iv
 
I'm a full blown perc user. I know it's not good but I always snort them. It's just that ritual of busting the pill down. I also love bupe. Methadone is good too. Morph I have to take too much and it messes up my breathing.
 
SirTophamHat said:
1. Whats your age and your geographical location?
24 (in <1week), Northeast USA

2. What is your experience with opiates, which ones do you use?
4 years experience, started with oxycodone before moving on to heroin, hydromorphone and oxymorphone. Still like OC, also I like pod tea & kratom. When given a chance to take a pharm I usually do, as I like the fact that they can't be cut with anything. Preference would prob. be opana>oc>H>dillies.

3. How often do you use opiates?
Every month or two, sometimes more often. I've had a few bouts where I had multiple uses weekly for a month or two, but I didn't have the money or free time to continue that rate of use without finding myself in big trouble. Right now I've been over two months without any and it's the longest break that I can remember.

4. Why do you use opiates?
They're like a cheat code for your brain. I feel like I'm a badass hacker (hahaha) when I'm feeling such blissful content and have no business doing so. Finding that perfect balance of nod is really sublime too.

5. What kind of drug scene are you in?
Big pothead, used to do psychs heavily and now do them occasionally.

6. Also, what kind of administration do you use?
I insufflate almost exclusively. Sometimes I'll gum a leftover crumb of pill...
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I'm now 28, experience about the same. I use opiates on a spree about once a year. Usually poppies. I do them a couple times a week until I run out, as a sort of vacation. I use opiates because they feel amazing and I can afford them . I am not currently in a drug scene; I smoke pot for insomnia and that's about it. Almost always oral admin. these days.
 
1. 21, Ohio
2. First opiate I did was iv dilaudid. Then I tried heroin and fell in love.
3. I got out of sober living about a month ago. Was opiate free from July until this past weekend. So...who knows.
4. I feel normal, like I always wanted to feel. Euphoric, numb, bliss. All the BS in the world is blocked out. Plus I finally feel comfortable when I lay down.
5. Im not really in a scene. People I hang with are dopeheads like me or don't do drugs at all.
6. IV preferably
 
i love vicodin, and the like, hard to get these days.for me anyway, so i only take one occasionally. when i can get em. sooo. i wanna try some poppy eating.or drink poppy tea, gotta try it, im no chemist, so , but yea i wanna smoke some too, some say they smoke it raw right after collecting it from the bulb, some say there is a process of boiling it, mmm not gonna do that, we will see how i like it, but the bulbs blended up with grapefruit juice sounds like a good tea, i saw that posted in another thread.so come on poppies grow grow grow!
 
Dr.Mambo said:
1. 21, Ohio
2. First opiate I did was iv dilaudid. Then I tried heroin and fell in love.
3. I got out of sober living about a month ago. Was opiate free from July until this past weekend. So...who knows.
4. I feel normal, like I always wanted to feel. Euphoric, numb, bliss. All the BS in the world is blocked out. Plus I finally feel comfortable when I lay down.
5. Im not really in a scene. People I hang with are dopeheads like me or don't do drugs at all.
6. IV preferably
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yea! all the bs is blocked out,, love that,
 
Hey you, yeah....YOU. I know what you're going through. And I will tell you how it ends. I am a 25 year old girl and I spent the last 7 years on and off of any type of narcotics. I'm free...let me tell you how this feels. First, let me warn you.
Getting on drugs will give you the single most difficult, painful, soul-crushing experience in your life....soon or later. You've never experienced completely LOSING yourself and all form of life and hope like you will if you take for just one more day. Because one more day is just a precursor to an endless number of one more days. I know you don't believe me....I know you think you have control....I know you've heard that before....but you don't....and you won't. Because if you take for one more day thinking you can stop tomorrow....tomorrow never comes. Because why would you wake up and choose to stop taking when you could just choose to do it "one more time"....to feel good today instead of bad. You won't. Don't tell me you will.
You might find yourself 7 years later and talking to your sister about how she gets the same high, happy, "all is good in the world" feeling without any drugs, as I do with them....and not be able to for one micro-second wrap your head around that idea or remember what that was like, or if you have even experienced that before. Because in the blink of an eye....you lose control....and you forget. And you look back and all you can remember is being unhappy without drugs...we can't seem to remember any joy we actually did feel...that's because the drug will refrain to give you any reason to let go of it.
So here I was....7 years later....after endless nights of crying and asking God to help me stop...but waking up the next day to choose to take something because why wouldn't you choose happiness if it came in an easy to take form? You would. And then it wears off and at night you find yourself crying and feeling the weighted blanket of shame covering your eyes all over again. But you live to quit another day. Tomorrow? Keep telling yourself that.

After talking with my sister about her joy and me not being able to fathom feeling it without drugs....I came to the end....I decided that I will never stop if I don't just do it NOW and choose to never look back. Am I ready? No. We will never be ready.
I needed to remember how that felt....it really was possible to feel joy and happiness like I do now without habitually taking something right before? I don't get it and it made my brain hurt and my heart ache that I couldn't grasp this. I really am not normal anymore.

So I stopped. Cold turkey.
I just decided that I am going to suffer....because if I don't feel the pain I need to feel from 7 years of drug use than I will never be terrified enough of returning. So I did...I didn't occupy my mind with other things to get it off of the withdrawals, no....I took it all in. Every restless leg jerk at 4am, every anxiety-ridden thought, every tear. And I just prepared myself for the worst....and somehow....that made it easier....
But cut to 6 days later. In the past withdrawals took about 3 days and on the third day it was either the worst and gone the next day or already gone completely. I think it's because in my mind I always had that blanket of drugs to run back to because I never fully committed myself to stopping for good.
But not this time....it's day 6 and for the past few days I gradually began feeling nothing.....just....nothing. And by nothing you're probably thinking...that doesn't sound all that bad. We hear in songs all of the time about feeling nothing and it somehow sounds attractive almost. But no...it's not. It's not at all what you imagine it to be like.
Imagine opening up your eyes in the morning to a feeling of complete apathy towards life. You have absolutely no desire and no motivation to get up. You look out of your window and all you can see is death...decay...surrounding and in everything. You feel no life. Nothing. Nothing except this hollow, empty, hungry feeling in your chest and gut that is driving you to the point of insanity.
Insanity? No....that's not actually all that attractive either.
I had NO idea who I was anymore...I didn't just feel nothing....I WAS nothing. There was not an ounce of life or juice or anything inside of me worth going on and worth fighting for. Why did I fight? I had no other choice. I decided drugs were not an option. And honestly....at this point....the only desire stronger than the idea of taking something to make this all go away....was the desire to just die.
And stop fighting.
But I just decided that wasn't an option either.
So on day 6....I lost all hope. I thought that I lost all hope on day 4.....but day 6 was a reminder that I did have a shred of hope still hiding in me somewhere on day 4. Now I have found out what it's like to ACTUALLY lose all hope.
Withdrawals are lasting too long this time and not even a shred of happiness has entered my lifeless being in the past 6 days. My brain just stopped producing ANY good chemicals. The brain heals right? Well when the spirit is broken....you'll start to lose faith in that too.
I just accepted that this was it for me. I am probably going to feel this for the rest of my life. And it's not that I'm okay with it....but I guess I just developed this coping mechanism in the past 6 days of suffering.... that was that, I accept this. I hate it. I hate me. But I'll go on. I gave myself no other choices.
I went to bed on day 6 feeling COMPLETE hopelessness.....really and truly weighing the idea that is it worth living anymore.....I had absolutely no idea that I would wake up the next morning and feel that first BURST of joy inside of my chest. It was more powerful and satisfying than I ever imagined it to be. I began waking up each day....deciding to get up and take a bath, get dressed, do whatever....simply because the idea of doing that made me feel good. I never ever imagined that I would feel this way or get to know what this feels like again after completely losing myself to drugs. But I did.
I truly believe that sometimes with withdrawals we need to hit COMPLETE rock bottom before there's no where else to go but up. So if you are feeling absolutely hopeless and like "will this ever end if so....when".....well, if you're as far down as you can possibly go, than probably tomorrow.
But you have to hit that.
The worse that you feel, the closer you are. And just know...you won't encounter anything that you really can't handle. We as humans developed a way of coping with anything. You will survive. So lose hope. But at the same time...don't.
Don't listen to anybody's stories online about how it took them weeks or months to recover....
It's all about how quickly you hit that rock bottom. So that you can fly again. And you might not be able to remember what that feels like....but you will. And just in time. Not a second too late.
It's worth it.
 
1. Whats your age and your geographical location?
20, south Chicago burbs

2. What is your experience with opiates, which ones do you use?
My DOC lately is suboxone for maintenance and occasional recreation but I love my opium tea and tramadol when I can get my hands on em. Pretty much any pain pill will do though if I find some.


3. How often do you use opiates?
Daily with occasional weekend breaks.

4. Why do you use opiates?
I hate everything about life and humanity and they fix that. By nature I'm a very depressed and easily upset individual. I have way more friends when I'm high lol.

5. What kind of drug scene are you in?
I only know maybe 3 other users, and only 1 of them uses how I do. It's a lonely activity for me generally unless the one on my level scores some good pills.

6. Also, what kind of administration do you use?
Any, besides needles and shoving stuff up my ass
 
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