ClassicCat
Greenlighter
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Ok…so I have always had a fairly healthy relationship with drugs. MDMA at a festival and coke binges with my friends were a regular part of my twenties and all whilst living a pretty productive enough life to get a good degree and do all the normal things. But…for about 7 years now, every time I do coke it seems like it affects me more than everyone else. All of my friends seem to be able to take a few lines of coke and be ok, whereas I end up being (politely) sent home. The worst thing is, I don’t really know what it is that I do to end up being shunned by people that in the light of day on a Monday afternoon would happily welcome my company. I find myself in a state of paranoia where I question whether I’m gurning too much or speaking too loud but nobody has explicitly said what I do that’s so wrong. I just know that whatever it is, suddenly I make everyone feel uncomfortable and when I say I’m going home I can see everyone breathe a sigh of relief as if to say ‘thank fuck’! A response I never get when I’m not doing gear.
Now in our thirties, coke has become a standard part of most of my social situations. My work friends love it on a Friday, my long term friends love the stuff so it’s hard for me to get involved without doing it but I know that it must change me in a way that people don’t like. I’m never rude or horrible to anyone so i don’t really know what I do to make everyone feel so uncomfortable.
I’d love to hear from anyone who has an annoying friend like me or has a similar problem…
Now in our thirties, coke has become a standard part of most of my social situations. My work friends love it on a Friday, my long term friends love the stuff so it’s hard for me to get involved without doing it but I know that it must change me in a way that people don’t like. I’m never rude or horrible to anyone so i don’t really know what I do to make everyone feel so uncomfortable.
I’d love to hear from anyone who has an annoying friend like me or has a similar problem…