you have GOT to be kidding me
i literally pinched myself to make sure i wasn't dreaming... then i realized i am browsing BL...
i realize it's an old post and all but damn, this is one of the craziest things i've ever read on this site, let alone the internet
DaMN!! that's some crazy shit...
CaptainKratom... i feel for ya, that was very high quality and relitevely high quantity stash that "went down the drain"...
As for me, the most embarrasing, i woulld say wakin up in Reanimation in hospital, asking the nurse what had happened, why i was there? and i realise as she's saying "you od'ed" that i did indeed, i was and am ashamed, also embarrassed, but to a slightly lesser degree and said something along the lines of "FUCK! not again" ... Because i have aquired so much knowledge on RC's (but also meds, drugs etc.) doses, LD-50's, ROA's, BA's, mechanisms of action etc. etc. etc. That for me to OD brings me shame (yes i take pride in my mostly useless in depth knowledge in specific domains, which are unlikely to come in usefull in day to day life

), i do forgive myself though because under the influence of MXE, 2C-P, 25c-nBOME (in this case), one's judgement is highly impaired...
We are never 100% "safe" as drug/med (ab)user's, even with all the knowledge and a maximum amount of precautions (neither of which i claim to have, just so we're clear...)
Got swindled when i was 14, in the train on the way to the projects, a random bloke engages in conversation, not dressed tracksuit style or baggy's, in retrospect he was blatantly overly friendly, smoothely but rather rapidly switches the topic to weed/hash, finds out we're going to score, persuades a friend and myself to give him the money, he'll go and "get the hash from his brother who lives next to the station", we'll get a better deal than in the PJ's, we won't have to carry from the PJ's back to the station a walk where the pigs/filth/police men like to intercept the users, furthermore this random bloke explained that he would get a stick of hash bla bla bla.
Wow, it's a win win win situatio, this seems very convinient for my friend and i, allthough we both knew the golden rule of "no giving cash up front", or even less "sit here, i'll go get and be right back" it when you don't know your dealer well, and even then should be precautious, but it was too tempting to get our hash without any hassle...
So we give him our money which we had saved specifically to get some puff for the weekend, at age 14 i had an allowance which was rather low, but had one none the less... not everyone does (i also sustained my cannabis use, by helping out friends who were too scared to go to the PJ's and/or didn't have a good connect)... anyway he takes the money, when i picture it now i can see a sparkle in his eyes and a micro smile as we hand the cash over, instructs to us to wait for him at the station "15 minutes max"... by 45 minutes passed we realised we'd been conned, after waiting 1 hour
we head back home, no hash no cash 