johanneschimpo I admit some of the shit i say does not add up as im ADHD and scattered brain but NO WAY do I potentialy lie, and if you care which you probably don't i would like an apology because i pretty much laid my heart, and soul on these fourms for help, not to get dogged, but i know it going to come with the territory so if you don't then whatever.
sorry I am not opiate naive I don't have an opiate tollerance because I been clean from methadone for over a month now (if naive and tollerance don't mean the same thing im just picking up word i hear here)
Yes I threw out A TON of pills 300 maybe not so much maybe i was overexagerating it could of been more like 150-200 but i surley did not get out every pill and count them. I would get them every month and be scriped up to four big ones a day, and take less than half of one, and no at the time it did not do nothing for me, I was too used to either methadone which i took for pain or street herion which i was getting from the streets. I acutally ended up hating them because they excaberated my nausea so i stopped taking them and accuired a huge stockpile. I also had thousands of benzo's, and tons of trycylics antidepressants, and soma.
A lot was going through my mind when I was detoxing me being in trouble with the law, and I was having suicide thoughts strongly about taking them all, so instead of offing myself, I got the courage to just throw them away since I thought i would never be using a single pill again.
And just five days ago i was not taking suboxone, it was a month or so since I have taken one. five days ago i was going out of my mind trying to find an opiate alternative and kept on thinking back to my options and made a thread stating how much i thought suboxone sucked.
Fast forward until now. I found some suboxone that I did not throw away figured what the heck, i have nothing to loose crushed them up and snorted them and got a pretty noddy buzz. It also lightned my depression and social anxiety if you read my thread which is every post i ever wrote threaded all together by the mods i probably state that over and over again.
I am just saying how suprised i am that this stuff is really not junk, I thought it was just for dumb addicts to get clean and that it. But I am really reconsidering the benefits of it, and if I can help me not relaspe it would be a wonderful thing.
One more thing, as you are mod I respect your opinion, and sometimes I have my shortcomings and don't think before I post, but please don't call me a troll and liar. My step dad is a pathalogical liar and abused me, and now I hate liars with a passion.
