Other people in BL, well EADD think that phenazapam is Satan pretty much. Yet the simple fact is if you got 1g powdered xanax and just started sticking little bits here and there in your mouth you would INDEED fuck everything up.
The first point is to make it measurable, so I put mine into 1 litre propylene glycol, costs nearly 3x the price of isopropanol, but its infinitely more safe, virtually non-toxic, especially if you are dosing like 2mg for breakfast, 2mg for dinner, 2mg for supper and 2mg for sleep. Not the best idea, but I was doing it with a 3 day gap between doses and to gauge the length.
I didn't have a problem with this dosing, but since it appears that no one knows the long distance record it seems to hold then dosing like I did is stupid as fuck daily for any length of time....I'd say if I did then 1g would be enough to get me into a situation I could get out of only by going on a reducing dose of another 1g........noticeably I did buy another 1g exactly in case it drew me in deep. I don't find it has. Much better dose 1mg as needed and wait about 15mins to kick in.
Now of course we should not be mixing with opiates and/or alcohol, prob not even MJ! Well during the 4 weeks of testing I mixed in various quantities with all 4. I won't talk of them except to say that going to a works christmas dinner and supping 5 shots gin just prior, then hitting up 2mg phen in the toilet, before taking my seat led to serious time dilation and no doubt people thinking I was weird as fuck. I also fucked up FAR more severely on 2 other later occasions...with maybe 5-7 units alcohol and 2mg phen.
It is not Satan if you mix it into a carrier fluid, and once you have seen what it is capable of doing to yourself in relatively small doses then it is possible to stand back and say "I will not take this or any of the things I have taken the past month for a week and see what happens".....yeah right, I hit the GBL up right next monring....that was a damn sight more to do with the alcohol and heroin though.
My real problem is going to come when I can no longer get GBL as it for me was a restraining, yet social drug...nothing else fits the bill and I am a chronic introvert with severe depression when I am clean, and I KNOW clean......I didn't know drink really until 18, I'd say that living 15-18 suicidal showed me how shit sober life was/could be.
On with the phen testing.