specialrelativity
Bluelighter
oonversely, what if I want to? 

oonversely, what if I want to?![]()
Tell that to the IRSyou don't have to do anything you don't want to.
Tell that to the IRS
I still am waiting for my refund. They are not as diligent about refunding your money as taking itI do my due diligence with them.
Traditional debt however, I completely ignore. Thankfully I have a partner with amazing credit. If I didn't id probably have to find everything under the table.
7 years and dumped by text message?What do you mean?
For anyone interested, after my girlfriend of seven years dumped me by text, she also stopped answering my phone calls. We are not speaking anymore by her choice not mine. She is completely unavailable to me in any way, shape, or form. I decided to relapse because the pain of what I was going through in trying to get clean coupled with the pain of losing the person I have loved and been through so much with for seven years unexpectedly and by text message was just too much for me to bear. I decided to use. I’ve been using for three days now. Today was my first taper dose and I’m going to be dosing down and trying to get clean again.
As a result of her decision to break up with me, I have decided to uproot my life and move to another state. I had already been considering this option as a possible choice for me because I’m having trouble securing employment where I am now and when my brother heard about what happened he immediately opened his home to me and created the possibility for me to be able to move in with him and his family. Between then and now, my goal is to reduce my intake back to zero.
While I work on reducing my intake I’m going to be preparing for the move. I’ve taken the last three days to grieve. I feel like she has died.
Continuing momentarily
7 years and dumped by text message?
That is very cold.
Maybe someone told her to eliminate any connections to the past; if she was trying to get sober?
At least you got a kind brother.
Same here. My address I finally got forwarded(really was depressed and didn't give a fuck about anything after my wifey & I "separated"), the kids, babies I let everyone around me down so things like keeping up with my payments with collections, I just don't fucking care about anything that tries to hold me accountable for paper from the hard work that I do..summons after summons get in line and just garnish my checks, they aren't shit and money as a concept really doesn't mean shit in the grand perception of things.I do my due diligence with them.
Traditional debt however, I completely ignore. Thankfully I have a partner with amazing credit. If I didn't id probably have to find everything under the table.
Same here. My address I finally got forwarded(really was depressed and didn't give a fuck about anything after my wifey & I "separated"), the kids, babies I let everyone around me down so things like keeping up with my payments with collections, I just don't fucking care about anything that tries to hold me accountable for paper from the hard work that I do..summons after summons get in line and just garnish my checks, they aren't shit and money as a concept really doesn't mean shit in the grand perception of things.
I am still crawling out of this hole even now as summer passes, but relationships with my family as a whole is much better..working things out and working towards getting our own apartment to be together again. Yet still broke as fuck financially but not broken.
When it rains it pours and well in reality I deserved every bit of this, sadness, depression, feeling like I'm not shit...and how could I let my family fall apart? Well I couldn't that's why it hurt so much at the time when she left., and left for good reason. Never did give up on them, Dad just fucked up and dropped the ball. Ultimately I feel her and I are much closer and I am still present any chance I get even if its just an hour or two after work to spend time with the kids and the beautiful woman I had been fighting desperately to get back.
Sorry I don't mean to post my problems I just hope it helps someone. It would be a different story if it were about her cheating or vice versa, not sure if I could forgve let alone forget that, would be a differentkind of hurt on top. Everyone has something going on in life that they are struggling with or trying to conquer..
It's actually refreshing to make a complete mess of yourself in "society's eyes". I don't know why but it's similar to starting over with a clean slate. Fuck it all up but as Incubus said in Make Yourself "If I'm going to fuck myself, i am going to fuck me in my own way"..Don't get it twisted. Life is still a bitch, and she will fuck you if you let her.but yeah I just live a day at a time, focusing on one step at a time.
Another thing to always keep in mind is that people change. Usually for the better, but things and people change and we are ALL trying to navigate through this so called life.
PS. Off topic; government/city jobs like DOT, courthouse, post office and allll these places NEED to stay open passed 4pm during the week and should be open for some time on weekends...seriously. PEOPLE WORK. No pto and a job being held by thin ice is my main reasons for hating these city official jobs that require us to "get shit done" , like plates/registration....I'm off at 4, so are those fucks..I had to explain this to the last officer that pulled me over lol. Rant over.
In my experiences, cops don't listen, unless it's what they want to hear. lolSame here. My address I finally got forwarded(really was depressed and didn't give a fuck about anything after my wifey & I "separated"), the kids, babies I let everyone around me down so things like keeping up with my payments with collections, I just don't fucking care about anything that tries to hold me accountable for paper from the hard work that I do..summons after summons get in line and just garnish my checks, they aren't shit and money as a concept really doesn't mean shit in the grand perception of things.
I am still crawling out of this hole even now as summer passes, but relationships with my family as a whole is much better..working things out and working towards getting our own apartment to be together again. Yet still broke as fuck financially but not broken.
When it rains it pours and well in reality I deserved every bit of this, sadness, depression, feeling like I'm not shit...and how could I let my family fall apart? Well I couldn't that's why it hurt so much at the time when she left., and left for good reason. Never did give up on them, Dad just fucked up and dropped the ball. Ultimately I feel her and I are much closer and I am still present any chance I get even if its just an hour or two after work to spend time with the kids and the beautiful woman I had been fighting desperately to get back.
Sorry I don't mean to post my problems I just hope it helps someone. It would be a different story if it were about her cheating or vice versa, not sure if I could forgve let alone forget that, would be a differentkind of hurt on top. Everyone has something going on in life that they are struggling with or trying to conquer..
It's actually refreshing to make a complete mess of yourself in "society's eyes". I don't know why but it's similar to starting over with a clean slate. Fuck it all up but as Incubus said in Make Yourself "If I'm going to fuck myself, i am going to fuck me in my own way"..Don't get it twisted. Life is still a bitch, and she will fuck you if you let her.but yeah I just live a day at a time, focusing on one step at a time.
Another thing to always keep in mind is that people change. Usually for the better, but things and people change and we are ALL trying to navigate through this so called life.
PS. Off topic; government/city jobs like DOT, courthouse, post office and allll these places NEED to stay open passed 4pm during the week and should be open for some time on weekends...seriously. PEOPLE WORK. No pto and a job being held by thin ice is my main reasons for hating these city official jobs that require us to "get shit done" , like plates/registration....I'm off at 4, so are those fucks..I had to explain this to the last officer that pulled me over lol. Rant over.
I genuinely hope so, wouldn't that be nice? You only relapsed for a couple of days too man, clean again, that's great. Just keep in touch with her, you never know.What if we all end up happy and better off than we are now?
... money as a concept really doesn't mean shit in the grand perception of things.
I am still crawling out of this hole even now as summer passes, but relationships with my family as a whole is much better..working things out and working towards getting our own apartment to be together again. Yet still broke as fuck financially but not broken.
When it rains it pours and well in reality I deserved every bit of this, sadness, depression, feeling like I'm not shit...and how could I let my family fall apart? Well I couldn't that's why it hurt so much at the time when she left., and left for good reason. Never did give up on them, Dad just fucked up and dropped the ball. Ultimately I feel her and I are much closer and I am still present any chance I get even if its just an hour or two after work to spend time with the kids and the beautiful woman I had been fighting desperately to get back.
Sorry I don't mean to post my problems I just hope it helps someone. It would be a different story if it were about her cheating or vice versa, not sure if I could forgve let alone forget that, would be a differentkind of hurt on top. Everyone has something going on in life that they are struggling with or trying to conquer..
It's actually refreshing to make a complete mess of yourself in "society's eyes". I don't know why but it's similar to starting over with a clean slate. Fuck it all up but as Incubus said in Make Yourself "If I'm going to fuck myself, i am going to fuck me in my own way"..Don't get it twisted. Life is still a bitch, and she will fuck you if you let her.but yeah I just live a day at a time, focusing on one step at a time.
Another thing to always keep in mind is that people change. Usually for the better, but things and people change and we are ALL trying to navigate through this so called life.
PS. Off topic; government/city jobs like DOT, courthouse, post office and allll these places NEED to stay open passed 4pm during the week and should be open for some time on weekends...seriously. PEOPLE WORK. No pto and a job being held by thin ice is my main reasons for hating these city official jobs that require us to "get shit done" , like plates/registration....I'm off at 4, so are those fucks..I had to explain this to the last officer that pulled me over lol. Rant over.