To be able to talk to my boyfriend. OR my LAST FUCKING DOSE of tramadol! Damn it! I blow money when I don't have a job because I don't plan ahead $100 here, another there, for fucking Tramadol. Because I live in bumfucknowhere....so I have Tramadol and benzos. Tramadol, Tramadol, Tramadol. Maybe if I had the first one, he could talk me out of it until I hit bottom and really need it because there won't be more for another month, until I shell out more money. I'm afraid its going to start coming out of my college account, or asking my parents for money for gas to get to school. Fucking Tramadol.
I'm frustrated.