sighkosis
Bluelighter
I'm in rehab and get random drops, so my timeframe for getting away with getting high is very limited--only one day in the afternoon, to be precise.
(And to be honest, as a chronic relapser with the thee-month curse who's been in four psych wards, a residential rehab, a PHP, and three IOPs nonstop for the last eight months, getting really fucked up is not very appealing anymore; I know exactly where that leads. So my stash is minimalistic and gentle, just the way I like it.)
360x 600mg gabapentin
~60x 300mg gabapentin
(I am very fond of my gabapentin script; instead of 1.8g daily I take about 4g twice a week or so (to minimize the notorious tolerance increases) and get a nice buzz, gently speedy, gregarious and empathogenic, but totally clear-headed)
1 cannabis oil vape cartridge (saving it for when I successfully complete (fingers fucking crossed) my rehab and no longer get dropped--I'm taking no chances)
~40x 0.5mg clonazepam and several 1mg (the last of my old script I'm no longer allowed as an "addict," though I never abused it, and it worked wonders from my anxiety. The gabapentin replacement does little for anxiety and, ironically, is much more fun to abuse, though I'm not telling my psych doc that. I'm saving these puppies for emergency PRNs, and only after rehab; they're fat-soluble like cannabis and I'm not gonna test how long they stay in my system.)
2x Adderall 30mg (a little gift from a rehab friend with a fat script--it's a one-time thing and I can't get more, so I feel ok using it--on the one safe afternoon, of course.)
(And to be honest, as a chronic relapser with the thee-month curse who's been in four psych wards, a residential rehab, a PHP, and three IOPs nonstop for the last eight months, getting really fucked up is not very appealing anymore; I know exactly where that leads. So my stash is minimalistic and gentle, just the way I like it.)
360x 600mg gabapentin
~60x 300mg gabapentin
(I am very fond of my gabapentin script; instead of 1.8g daily I take about 4g twice a week or so (to minimize the notorious tolerance increases) and get a nice buzz, gently speedy, gregarious and empathogenic, but totally clear-headed)
1 cannabis oil vape cartridge (saving it for when I successfully complete (fingers fucking crossed) my rehab and no longer get dropped--I'm taking no chances)
~40x 0.5mg clonazepam and several 1mg (the last of my old script I'm no longer allowed as an "addict," though I never abused it, and it worked wonders from my anxiety. The gabapentin replacement does little for anxiety and, ironically, is much more fun to abuse, though I'm not telling my psych doc that. I'm saving these puppies for emergency PRNs, and only after rehab; they're fat-soluble like cannabis and I'm not gonna test how long they stay in my system.)
2x Adderall 30mg (a little gift from a rehab friend with a fat script--it's a one-time thing and I can't get more, so I feel ok using it--on the one safe afternoon, of course.)
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