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What drug caused you most trouble?

Meth.

I tried to keep it quiet, because my friends seemed kinda shady. I suspected it wouldn't be a good drug for them. I knew they'd tried it before.

But freaking dammit, somehow the word got out and I was surrounded by fucking fiending demons. They told everyone they could think of, begged and lied and tried to force me into hooking them up. Suddenly every time I declined to shop lift with them, it was because I was betraying them. Whereas before when I declined, it was because I didn't frickin' shop lift. When they got so drunk that they couldn't do anything but fight, I would leave, like usual. But now I wasn't ditching their dumb asses before they wrecked the place or got the cops called. It must have been because I needed to feed my "addiction!"

Eventually I just started telling them I couldn't hang out 'cuz I had to do meth. It was the easiest and quickest excuse to get them to leave me alone. I don't buy booze to drink with them anymore. I had to take a break from drinking. Like I'd done about 4 times since I met them. But they took it personally. They'll call me while they're near anyone who knows me. They'll call me when they have a car full of pretty girls. And they try to do an intervention style phone call, saying the word 'meth' as much as possible.

They were always like that, I guess. I was too drunk to notice, and I was getting them drunk so they never turned their rage and manipulation towards me. Hit of meth woke me up. And rewoke the beasts in them. I was always totally honest with my "best friend." We kept each other secrets, right? Now he talks about my "addiction" to anyone who listens.

I thought I was the one who was suppose to betray them...

Meth made me a target of my former friends' trouble. But thank god, because it forced me away from them. I've stolen 11 times in my life. Never before I started drinking. Most of the times while drinking. I decided to quit stealing. And they decided that if I wasn't one of their thugs, I would be an outcast addict.

Probably most of the people who read this will suspect I'm really just a paranoid, self-absorbed, lieing tweaker. Most of the people I used to party with now think that.

But it was worth the trade. Even getting addicted was worth the trade. I've only betrayed one person before, and that was under the influence of alcohol... The people I used to love make a career of betrayal. The crystal gave me self-confidence, even if it was drug induced and temporary. But that was all I needed to see my values and honor again.

And damn, I can't really argue against them, 'cuz meth did make me end up choosing myself over them. They say I'm a bitch now. Nah, I'm less of a bitch than ever. I chose to walk my own direction rather than theirs.

I kinda enjoy the pariah reputation, anyway. So I told this story to the internet. 'Cuz it was hella long and if I just said all that to a person they'd think I was hella tweaked. I love the ironies. I promised myself I would no longer cause malice or hurt society for my own greed. Just keep a job and keep high. I've broken less than 10 promises in my life.. maybe less than 5. and none since that first puff of vapor.

the future used to depress me. now it excites me. I'll be strong or I'll be weak and evil. I get to find out who I really am.

I don't know how to put my post behind one of those button things. A mod is welcome to shove this whole post behind one.
 
Blow almost killed me. Same with benzo's. Both of those blow. I'll never do them again.


...Xanax, I'll do, but in moderation. I know that I don't need 8mg's to feel good. If I take a therapeutic dose, I'm good to go. I just took a .25mg xanax a little bit ago, and I feel floaty. NO MORE BAD DECISIONS ON THIS SHIT, THAT I CAN'T REMEMBER!
 
Crack....no matter how many hardships it's caused me in the past, the availability in my area keeps me coming back. Then there's heroin, no other drug ever had the physical hold on me that it has.
 
Sweet P said:
Oh yeah... I once rear-ended an idle car at an intersection while on clonazepam.

I had forgotten all about that little incident till now. :)
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While on clonazepam I gently glided into the median and softly brushed against the guard rails on the freeway. Causing only cosmetic damage to the car. I also rear-ended a womans car that same night. The amazing part was that this woman was DRUNK!!!! So she didn't call the cops, trade info, none of that. Just slurred the words, "It's a rental", and drove off.

My girlfriend/co-pilot woke up several times and offered to drive that night, promptly passing out after each offer.
 
crystal meth took my daughter whose almost 5 and everyone i cared about from me and almost took my life. im only 22. i was clean from december 2007 too august this summer but i got ahold of some bomb shards and get on one for 5 days. i was so mad at myself. i almost go to two years and now i gotta start all over again. i was on that shit for 6 years. i just wanna see my daughter. now i can only say ive been clean since august 09....:(
 
sizzurp said:
While on clonazepam I gently glided into the median and softly brushed against the guard rails on the freeway. Causing only cosmetic damage to the car. I also rear-ended a womans car that same night. The amazing part was that this woman was DRUNK!!!! So she didn't call the cops, trade info, none of that. Just slurred the words, "It's a rental", and drove off.

My girlfriend/co-pilot woke up several times and offered to drive that night, promptly passing out after each offer.
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Wow! I was quite lucky too... there was only a slight dent on my front bumper, and the car I hit was a piece of shit that looked like it would be going to the scrap yard soon anyway. The owner got out of his car, checked the damage, muttered "don't worry about it" and drove off! That was the only benzo-related car accident I've had, which is pretty good considering I've been on the stuff every day for 6 years. :)
 
The Crack

8 uses 8 9 10 thousand dollars stole my father's rare coins.

I hate the crack and this was 20 years ago....
 
gorgoroth said:
Amphetamines (esp meth) and Temazepam.

...And I can't be around temazepam because i'll get my hands on it, other benzos were a minor problem (nitrazepam, alpralozam, lorazepam, clonazepam, diazepam, oxazepam) but not enough for an addiction, temazepam was leagues ahead of all those and cost me alot. Overall? i'd say amphetamines, with temaze a close second.
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Yep, temazepam (always in combination with alcohol) led me to the nearest car and prompted 50+ mile journeys. Dexedrine isn't really doing anything for my adhd beside fuck up my body.

DXM+5-HTP+MDMA led to epilepsy, so that combo has left me with a lifetime worth of trouble.

GBL gave me seizures so fuck that stuff too.

An unknown MAOI (which I was told was an exotic benzo) ended up being taken hours before amphetamines and that caused two weeks of psychosis where I believed failure to adequately pinpoint the events that led to the creation of the universe would lead to a life of nothing.


However, top of the trouble-makers was a huge oral dose of 2C-T-7 which threw me into a psychotic state where I experienced no physical pain despite destroying 80% of objects in one room of a house and regaining consciousness to find my blood covering everything in sight.
 
lsd but only because my mom was really pissed about me doing it, i didn' got in trouble. Anyway with all the well being acid gave me, id accept being in trouble for it at least once.
 
meth.... I had it 5 times only but it was hell.The high isnt worth the bad feeling after & brain damage.Only time I liked it was from very tiny dose smoked,it was good mood enhancer and stimulant with afterglow!!! yes afterglow from meth but like I said,little dose smoked... no 500mg IV.


I forgotten about my datura/belladona combo nightmare.... meth is nothing compared to three days of delusional paranoia.
 
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I've done my fair share of drugs but the one that did the biggest number on me is LSD. At first it was so incredibly fun, we would run around fields or go to amusement parks, good times.

Once I got used to tripping it just got way too mental. It definitely blurred the line of reality and wasnt worth it in my eyes now.
 
Midazolam fucked me up like nothing else.
Lost my g/f because of it and almost my job.
Living in a blackout while addicted to heroin isn't a good idea.
And it makes you act really weird. Problem is that you don't know this your self.
 
benzos are troubles waiting to happen

coke usually turns me to a demon too. crack crawls are fucked up too

dxm fucked up my mental process in my early teens also creating a whole slur of family problems with me. and its the first drug my parents caught me on.. I know..syrup sipping was t he first drug I got caught on..its aweful
 
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