^That's definitely the best attitude one can have. I can understand people who stay away for fear of relapse too though, but I always think "I'm surely gonna come across drugs again, so my own resistance and willpower is all that really matters." And yes, I have learned to use in moderation. Had to learn hard way with plenty of relapses, but eventually I got it under control.
You should reconsider ignoring people who have known you this long. They really just want the best for you. This doesn't sound like anyone is "straight edge" just concerned that (as you yourself say) your drug use is for pain and anxiety, but at the same time "bad", so I infer kand you know it is true) that your drug use has far surpassed any medically acceptable or beneficial point and is abuse. As addicts, it is suprising what our mind and body convince us of.
Sorry to bring you down and derail the thread, but I'll wrap it up nicely.
Hipocrisy?
This has nothing to do with sraight edge people or the hardcore lifestyle, and you are a bigger hipocrite than any edger I have met.
Point taken about going off-topic. Sorry I'm doing it again. But I am just not a hypocrite, I'll explain why below.. Also why are "edgers" automatically hypocrites to you? Or if that's not what you meant by it, what are your reasons for using straight edge people as some sort of "scale" of hypocrisy? You're generalizing, which is a fucked up way of thinking imo.
You quoted those lines out of context because all they were meant for was helping people here understand what kind of a drug-user he is. Did I ever say him taking those drugs was 'wrong'? This is bluelight, and I'd have thought you would have realised I'm not condemning him for using drugs. Hell, I like taking drugs recreationally too. Otherwise I wouldn't be on this forum. Saying I'd like to see him quit using drugs, obviously means I don't think he could. I don't get on his case though because THEN I'd feel like a real hypocrite. Support and advice is all I can offer if a person realises he has a drug-problem. I think all my friends know I'm not the judging type, and know I will help when it's needed, and wanted. (The person must want it or you'll just come off as a nag and push the person away, and if someone doesn't want to see or admit a drug-problem, not much can be done that actually helps.)
Basically I'm angry because he will often act like a total jerk when saying something about med use. He always speaks about it to someone else, while making damn sure I hear what he's saying. He also does so in a degrading, and rude manner. I mean, my friends know I need meds, but I am really the only one in our group. Whenever he is bashing on med use once again, I know he's doing so only because I'm there to hear it. Talking about it in such a degrading manner causes (most of my) friends that only smoke pot to think I have serious med-problems. Which I can honestly say I don't anymore. I make sure I don't ever need more than my maintenance dose (which is 10mg diazepam), and I began using my painkillers only when I'm really in a lot of pain. It's no longer a problem.. A few months ago when I was eating boxes of benzos, that's when I had a big fucking problem.
OT: Sorry I thought straight-edge was just a name for people who simply don't use drugs of any type (anymore).