I used to work in commercial flooring installations but the adhesives where killing my brain cells, imagine someone with a solvent/glue addiction and times that by 100, I was pouring our gallons of the shit everyday, high grade industrial contact adhesive, spreading it around with trowels, no face masks or breathing apparatus, I know stupid thing to do but hey what can I say, the money was great and I just hooked in and got the job done.
then fucked up my back, have been on insurance payments since the accident and have just gone back into my previous occupation of IT, website design and video editing.
I'm currently editing a tourism/education DVD for Australian tourism about the dinosaur footprints in the outback channel country of northern Australia, getting flown around national parks and taken to out of limits tribal lands by rangers and aboriginal elders to map and document major sites of paleontology and archeological interest and combining that with my personal research into traditional Australian aboriginal shamanic culture and ceremonies.
The Aboriginal "clever men" can manipulate time and space, can appear in two distant places at once, can curse, cure, and for tel the future, I am slowly building up a rapport with these elders but it is going to take a lot of time, patience, trust and commitment to be accepted and taught the secrets of this 80,000 year old magical culture.
combined with a serious pain management problem of high codine and opium use, benzo's acid, mushrooms, dmt, and mindfulness (examination of the self)
my 40's are turning out to be one of the most interesting and challenging personal times of my life so far.
And i started out 30 years ago as a lost kid backpacking around the world with no money, depressed, lost, lonely and suicidal, just goes to show that hanging in there and rage rage rage against the dying of the light can inject a new energy and lifeforce into existance
i have come from the depths of despair to a slow and steady climb back up to a level of personal happiness.
I'ts not always easy, but willpower and determination to not be beaten by life have carried me through.
Oh, and my fucking mad family back in the Uk have broken all contact with me (the black sheep of the family) and I haven't had any family support since I was 15.
But a good woman and a daughter I love have given me all the strength I needed to get through the toughest times.
Oh and I play a pretty mean guitar.