EmDeeEmAye
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- Jun 2, 2013
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Most intense mdma experience ever the other night. Still in shock to be honest. It was my 5th time. I peaked twice and the second time was so intense and lasted atleast 3x longer than usual, that was the part that truly shocked me. After my usualy great peak I redosed (first time i ever tried this) and went into the most intense and length peak ever, I couldnt even imagine this before despite experiencing mdma previously. I had a nice 3 month long break before doing this and I took a higher dose than usual.
During my second peak I was pretty much a wreck. I felt so good that I could barelly move. Is there a word to describe that?
I was also experiencing this thing where when I closed my eyes I felt like I was completely transported out of the room into another world/room. When I opened them I was thrown back into the room. Is there a word for this? Is it depersonalization? I felt like my mind left my body to go into another room briefly and then when I reopened my eyes it was thrown back into the room and I remembered where I was.
I was also getting completely random and weird thoughts in my head. I cannot remember them all but one was where somebody put there fingers on their mouth and I thought/heard in my head "he's smoking his fingers", "his fingers are cigarettes" and also at one point "theres a giraffe in the room" when my eyes closed for a second and for about 3 seconds I believed there was a giraffe in the room and I looked around for it. It was like a voice in my head saying this random stuff very fast. A ton of random stuff went through my head and it didnt make sense but I dont remember. I was very intrigued by this at the time so I made a concious effort to remember those two instances. Do these sound like auditory hallucinations?
This has happened before when I mixed weed while coming down from mdma but it happened during my peak this time, I had a lot of memories come up from my childhood that I never knew I had. I did not know I had these memories and it was the first time I ever remembered them if that makes sense. I saw images of toys I had when I was 3 or 4 years old flash in my head and I had other childhood memories come up which I never knew existed. Has anybody else experienced this?
I feel like I may have pushed it just slightly too far as I became too much of a wreck for a period where I was pretty much oblivious to the music even though the music was pulsating through my brain and put me into a kind of trance, but Ive got to say this was the most mindblowing experiencing of my life and I am thankful for it. I dont know if I will ever be able to reach that level again. I have had absolutely no harsh comedown either, I have just felt myself.
Basically I had a really good time
During my second peak I was pretty much a wreck. I felt so good that I could barelly move. Is there a word to describe that?
I was also experiencing this thing where when I closed my eyes I felt like I was completely transported out of the room into another world/room. When I opened them I was thrown back into the room. Is there a word for this? Is it depersonalization? I felt like my mind left my body to go into another room briefly and then when I reopened my eyes it was thrown back into the room and I remembered where I was.
I was also getting completely random and weird thoughts in my head. I cannot remember them all but one was where somebody put there fingers on their mouth and I thought/heard in my head "he's smoking his fingers", "his fingers are cigarettes" and also at one point "theres a giraffe in the room" when my eyes closed for a second and for about 3 seconds I believed there was a giraffe in the room and I looked around for it. It was like a voice in my head saying this random stuff very fast. A ton of random stuff went through my head and it didnt make sense but I dont remember. I was very intrigued by this at the time so I made a concious effort to remember those two instances. Do these sound like auditory hallucinations?
This has happened before when I mixed weed while coming down from mdma but it happened during my peak this time, I had a lot of memories come up from my childhood that I never knew I had. I did not know I had these memories and it was the first time I ever remembered them if that makes sense. I saw images of toys I had when I was 3 or 4 years old flash in my head and I had other childhood memories come up which I never knew existed. Has anybody else experienced this?
I feel like I may have pushed it just slightly too far as I became too much of a wreck for a period where I was pretty much oblivious to the music even though the music was pulsating through my brain and put me into a kind of trance, but Ive got to say this was the most mindblowing experiencing of my life and I am thankful for it. I dont know if I will ever be able to reach that level again. I have had absolutely no harsh comedown either, I have just felt myself.
Basically I had a really good time
