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What behavior gives your use away?

zerog33k said:
As a meth user I know exactly what would give me a way so I do the complete opposite.

Sad thing is, after a few too many days up are you sure your doing what your think your doing the way you intend to be doing it?

Try as hard as I fucking can to sit and "look normal" while smoking on a bench out in public, you feel like every motherfucker in the Country is looking right at you so inevitably you start messing up.

Funny shit in hindsight. Terrifying when your in it.
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I KNOW!!! I try to catch myself before anyoneelse does...like sometimes I will ramble too long and I think I'm looking obvious...and at work you gotta learn to put on the brakes!!! If your boss walks past you 5 times in a day and every time you have done everything including dusting off the tops of picture frames hanging on the wall, your prolly not gonna get a raise for that!
 
Great topic for a thread!

Lets see. Back in my addicted state (pain pills), I managed to function and appear quite "normal", (as long as I had a supply.) However, in hindsight, there should have been indications that I was an opiate addict.

1. My pupils become pinned more quickly and profoundly than anyone else I know. Seriously, a crumb of a 5 mg. hydro, and they are so small as to be almost nonexistent.

2. I rarely had any money; I would put like 5 bucks worth of gas at a time in my car, scrounge for change to buy cigarettes, etc.

3. How many times per month can a person have "a touch of stomach flu?" (My ability to score was haphazard and limited a lot of the time, either due to cash flow or locating a supply, so at times, I spent about as many days in w/d as I did feeling good. Man did that suck.)

4. Spending a lot of time and being "friends" with some shady-ass people. Innocent family members would wonder why I "let them take advantage" of me so, but the truth was, I was in the position of having to kiss ass in order to assure I'd get what I needed. Don't miss that; never going back.

5. I quit drinking, like, overnight. My Mom was so "proud" of me for this, but little did she know I had traded chronic alcohol abuse for way worse actual addiction. I still feel awful for allowing her to keep on believing that.

I don't believe there were ever any real "tells" that I was high at the moment, when I would be around people. I would become way more "happy" and talkative, but I have always had spurts like that, even without the aid of opiates.
 
Benzos are one of the only drugs its easy to tell i'm on if i've done a large enough dose. They never do though because I tend to stay away from people when I use benzos for that reason. I suppose most people would be able to tell i'm tripping when I only have 1 centimeter of iris left. Besides that i'm really good at hiding intoxication of any kind.
 
I haven't told the people I live with, that I use. I know I get really red eyes and I could 'clear eyes' -it-up, but sometimes a flatmate might say to me, "man! you sound hell tired!" - so I use that excuse and might aswell blame the red eyes on that too - also, it's well known in my house that I hella need glasses, so sometimes I say my eyes are red because I have been trying to read a book lol, 'you really gotta get those glasses mate!' lol - not sure if I'm fooling anyone, but oh well.
 
cowmama said:
hA HA!

16 mins to boner,huh?

I think I act fairly normal under the influence. My hubby only expresses concern when I am hiding in the bathrrom too much and not interacting with him as much.
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Or after a night of using you nod of in your computer chair just to wake up at 5am with ur face planted in the keyboard of your laptop and an imprint on your forehead and numb body parts from laying on them too long.
 
staying up all night, smelling of pot, my eyes (zoned-out, red, pin-pupiled, etc.), and likely too my demeanor

tho they never - ever - specifically accuse me, on the spot, of being high.
 
leiphos said:
tho they never - ever - specifically accuse me, on the spot, of being high.
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Nice to see that they respect you.

When I was living at home, I would get accused left and right of being high when I wasn't. Actually, I visited recently and my mom accused me of being a meth addict (a drug that I've never used even once in my life) and tried to stage an intervention. 8)
 
quirkiness, anything unusual from the "norm" behavior of when i'm sober, too talkative, too sleepy/unmotivated, not talkative enough, etc.
 
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