I am scripted NOTHING nowdays.. its kinda boring!

ha.
man, I think of what I was once scripted and compare it to the NOTHING I am on now.. again, its just sad
my last OD was when many of my scripts were CUT; this was last August. from there I ended up getting scripted Subox @ 16MG/day and some whack anti-depressant which I didnt need but the addict in me said WHY NOT!?!? anyway, after about 6 months I relapsed and my script was eventually cut, along w/ the anti-depressant.
at one point I was scripted xanny, zoloft, dilaudid, ambien, anti-seizure meds and trazadone. those were the "fun" times but that was me coming off surgery after a BRAIN TUMOR was removed. I was in "pain" but def. overused those dilaudid and use dope along w/ the dilaudid. my Dr. knew I was a dope fiend going into the surgery; I had to tell him since they were putting me "out" for the surgery, and I wanted to make sure they gave me enough drugs to keep me out and out of pain. once I got sent home and not longer on the liquid IV dilaudid, I over-used the pills and shot them all within 2 days. they only gave me 30 or 60 2MG pills, so to a dope fiend it wasnt much. I called the Dr. back and told him I "lost" the script and needed more. again, he knew I was a dope fiend and questioned me but refilled the script. well, when I called him back 3 days after saying I lost the script, AGAIN, thats when he said its the dope fiend in me and would not refill. oh well, it just led to more dope. that was then, tho. now I have NOTHING scripted.. kinda sad! ha. only sad to a true junkie.. but yes, its sad to me!