Benzos and opiates. FUCK. I go to my mom's house, I know (my) diazepam is in the house (I once asked her to hold on to them and give me my dose, but she stopped giving it a while ago) and now I can't fucking stop thinking about how fucking bad I 'need' some. I turned the whole place upside down but ofcourse I didn't find 'em. (Yeah they finally found some hiding spots I can't find it seems..)
Lots of Xanax
Some Valium
bit of Dalmane
Maybe some Zopiclone
little bit of Methadone
and possibly 1 or 2 joints of nice cannabis after all the above have settled in nicely.
Craving literally anything tonight! I don't care what it is, I want it. I just don't want to stay sober this Saturday night hah. Wouldn't mind getting stoned though.