OT: Pot, opiates, ketamine, mxe. Any of those would have me feeling great right about now.
Gonna see if I can get some zolpidem from my mom 'for a good night's sleep'. It's been a while since I've taken any, and the cross tolerance w/ real benzos never seems to be that bad.
Fentanyl or another high-dose opiate (never tried heroin, but I'd love to try some pure diacetlymorphine or just morphine). Or a barbiturate, or carisoprodol/meprobamate. I like downers the best, but I don't like benzos
I really want anything that shows up on the drug tests my parents are having me take just because I haven't been able to take those things for a veryyyyyyy long while.
Xanax, just a single bar pleeeease, I can make it last for at least 2-4 major panic attacks since I've been taking 1mg klonopin every day for several months now.
I'm pulling my hair out (not literally) over this legal shit, and I just want some fucking tool already that will let me go and finally face my PO despite anxiety almost to the point of agoraphobia some days.