I could use 50 mg - 100 mg butalbital to relax a bit w/ another dose of tramadol at 75 mg - 125 mg. That would be nice to go to bed relaxed and get SOME sleep, because I have to get up VERY early in the morning. Part of me just would prefer to take the butalbital, tramadol, and a dose of mixed amphetamine salts (ER) at probably just 5 mg, maybe 10 mg, and stay up the few hours I would have to sleep and just go through the next day, BUT neither of those are really feasible right now, so I am just where I am, and I may or may not sleep - dreading one way or another the morning. I could fall asleep now, I know, but I have a sort of aversion to it if it is earlier than I normally do, and it is. FUCK. What I really crave is for tomorrow to have a nice dose of amphetamine, especially. The other regular daily drugs - clonazepam, alprazolam (but only at night), & tramadol, too, I will no doubt need. Butalbital would go nicely with those amps tomorrow, so I don't get too edgy, though amps don't really do that to me, but still I like being relaxed.