Really craving beer or something to tie up my GABA receptors. I no longer have the financial freedom to waste money on recreational drugs, including beer. I also don't know when I can get any more valium, of which I am going to run out of at some point. I've also come so far with my decreased reliance on it, and don't want to fuck that up. I know I can go without these things, it's just so hard when it's become a habit to use one or both just about every day for years and years. Today I've been drinking tea nonstop which kinda helps. I still feel kinda uncomfortable. 5mg of valium this morning held me well until about a couple hours ago. The key to kicking for me is to stay busy from dawn to dusk so that I am forced to sleep from exhaustion, and repeat the process until the body adapts. Kava would be OK, if it weren't so fucking expensive. Basically just gotta ride this out.