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What age do you think you will die?

You need to be clean and stable for that. I'm thinking about it. I have an appointment with a specialist in the new year. Shall take things from there. I'm now at the chronic stage, and my body isn't fighting it alone. My friend has fought his off himself, but he does not hammer his immune system like I do, and is not a big drinker. I shouldn't even be drinking as it encourages multiplication and speeds up the disease.
 
Mugz said:
fuck you treacle, and get the fuck on MSN yourself :p or would that message constitute trying to pull you? if so, stay off
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I haven't been on MSN for months. I don't know many people who still use it, other than Bluelighters. I'll come on, at some point.
 
Would be nice to be a good ripe old grandpapi at 80, I could laze around being the stereo typical embarrassing old geezer. Not worried a fuck cos I'm out my bald wee coupon on oxy's and viagra (too pee straight). %)
 
3 OD's before i was 18 and my lifestyle hasnt changed much.. if i cant kick drugs i doubt i'll make it to 22
Had a fun life though =D
 
I don't know, I hope I live to an old age as to die young is my biggest and utmost fear. Scares the shit out of me. I am not one of those people who can accept death and just say "when it's your turn, it's your turn". Fuck that, I've got a trillion things I still want to do, places I want to visit, things I want to see and do, experiences I want to have and I am not even close to reaching my full potential. Fuck off death!
 
if things carry on this way, i'll die when i've sucessfully aliented anyone whose misguided enough to care about me, hopefully that wont take long.
 
chinup said:
if things carry on this way, i'll die when i've sucessfully aliented anyone whose misguided enough to care about me, hopefully that wont take long.
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I'll be here for ya before i die :) you know where i am
 
mydrugbuddy said:
I think anyone would care enough about someone saying things like that to say get some help.
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thanks, i have just started some cbt.

YPDH- its a conundrum. realistically my parents should want nothing to do with me by now, i have done every horrible thing i can to them, not purposefully, and i do regret it, so i don't know. assaulting my boyf got him reassessing our relationship in no time. being a mess all the time would prob sort my mates out.

gah sorry for being so fucking dark.
 
Everyones got dark.

Perhaps the people who love you accept that there is that persona, or whatever it is that comes out when you loose the plot.. but know that its not the normal you.
Stress brings out our monsters.. Ive got a name for mine. Shes not my normal self.
Perhaps youve got to accept it instead of beating yourself up when you return to normal.. eg when the adrenalin subsides and you start thinking reasonably.
 
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