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what a goosd excuse for mnot searcinmg for any jobs until day 14 of your job search

Parttime Crackhead's post was in response to your claim "All my post were carefully thouight through and rational". He argued that this claim is not true. Kind of a pointless argument if you ask me (though you didn't =D).

How much buprenorphine are you taking per day now? And how much etizolam? Alcohol? Can you get that etizolam dose to a point where it does nothing except take away the worst of the withdrawal any time soon?
 
OK I got the PM, I understand you don't want everything on here, and I reckon you're being pretty open already.

Do you spread the etizolam evenly thru the day? If not, try to do so. I'm sure you've read the drill, but also try to put as much time between doses as possible.. make the dosages so that you'll be slightly-uncomfortable but without the heavier palpitations/sweat/tremors, try to find that point.

Also knock that kind of daily buprenorphine use on the head now. You've not been on it for very long yet, and you don't have a serious opioid dependance yet. Fucking horrible choice for an "antidepressant", that :|

Pregabalin (Lyrica) helped me loads when I came off of benzos.
 
ah i see thanks. Im not even gonna even retort to that one (of his). I think the wall of silence through blocking "The Magnificent 7" as i love calling them is working quite well for the moment.

So im not going to spoil it my taking a bit of the bait they keep dangling me. Much as im tempted too. Ive surprise myself at how adept ive become at verbally ripping peoples heads off. Nothing big or clever in that i know. But after falling out with Sekio yesterday i surprised myself with the frerocity of my anger and tone.

Ive got a long way to go till i reach the levels of SHM. I know its not his misssion in life to verbally destry people, but it'd very satisfying to be able to do so, should it seem appropriate. (it did yesterday, all the patronising bullshit was too much for anyone, Sekio was talking like giving an alcolic a bottle of spirits and saying now dont drink it all at once and aptting him on the head. Im sure he didnt mean to come across so badly and patronsingly, but his post was so extremely patronisingly worded that it riled the fuck out of me anbd his head had to be ripped off.)

I feel ive been judged/ pre -judged by this forum now and will never be treated the same by some, such as Sekio. I have to decide can i live with forever being patronised, or fuck this place off, nad jst talk to some of the people i like here on email or PM/IM or something.

SAM, where are you ? Isnt it the same crowd that had it in for you that have now turned on me. I just wonder who will be next. I had certainly never even sent a disrespectful mesasage to anyone of them and done nothing personally to any of them. =If you're readingt have you found it best just to leave the place behind

im half tempted to do that, but out of sheer stubborn bloody mindedness i wont let them drive me away. Plus i still enjou interacting with the other 93 % or so members here that are sound. I have never given anyone any grief, but i know life isnt fair. Im not going into a boo hoo poor me post, juts babbling again.

Right Shit Face (my own name for my self) get you're arse off here and do something fucking useful !!
 
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^ that's the spirit. i can see the progress you're making mdb. shit face isn't a nice name for yourself is it though? There's plenty of good folks here, andi think it's a great place for a bit of support and interaction. When I had my funny turn a couple of years back this was one of my saviours.
 
lurching said:
OK I got the PM, I understand you don't want everything on here, and I reckon you're being pretty open already.

Do you spread the etizolam evenly thru the day? If not, try to do so. I'm sure you've read the drill, but also try to put as much time between doses as possible.. make the dosages so that you'll be slightly-uncomfortable but without the heavier palpitations/sweat/tremors, try to find that point.

Also knock that kind of daily buprenorphine use on the head now. You've not been on it for very long yet, and you don't have a serious opioid dependance yet. Fucking horrible choice for an "antidepressant", that :|

Pregabalin (Lyrica) helped me loads when I came off of benzos.
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yeah i know your right, the spreding the etizlams out throughouyt the day wioll have tro start very soon, im knocking on that door this minute really. Ill spoeak to my worker on Fri.

Also ive been dependant on opis or about 18 months so cfant face stopping 2 things at the same time. ASt least my bupe hyabit is well within prescribed limits and relaiveley really low. Jut onot ready yet. Ive switched antidpressant a week ago (ans despiute forgetting to take them half the time) im gonna give my brain about a month - 5 weeks to asjust to the wds off one, and wait for the good effects of the other to start kicking in.

Then it will be time for me to tackle bupe. Aplogies for my stubborness but ive drwan up all these planjhs in my own head that make so much sense to me, that im sticking to them. I suppose i could try sticking to 1.5, then 1.25, then 1.0 bupe in the meantime. But definately not ready to cold turkey that right now. I know it riles everyone esle ehen i say "i know what im doing" but who understands my own psycholgy better than mydelf.

thanks for your advice though. i donty mean to be rude and discount it, as you can see im a taking elements of it on board. Just not ready for the whole hog of w=quitting buoe until about after 2 months on Mirtazapine. Im hyoping that stuff will hyelp stabalise me and fend off the worst of any PAWS. BELIEF is the key, and i believe it will help.

So theres aother plan im stubbornly sticking to come hell or high water.

highest regards anyway for taking the time and effort to try and help me

amdb
 
MDB - Ignoring myself and the other six members of my Magnificent crew would probably work a lot better if you didn't bang on about it constantly.

You know that saying "think before you speak"? Do that, but with typing. Think and read stuff back before posting, you'll find you make a lot more sense that way and you won't repeat yourself or contradict yourself in the same post.

Or just go off on a big random rant about how hard done by you are and how you are ignoring everyone so hard.
 
pinkpapaver said:
^ that's the spirit. i can see the progress you're making mdb. shit face isn't a nice name for yourself is it though? There's plenty of good folks here, andi think it's a great place for a bit of support and interaction. When I had my funny turn a couple of years back this was one of my saviours.
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thnkyou, its more of a pet name, but less cringeworthy than bunnybuddles or something horrific like that, it jys makes me smile and gives me some fighting spirit
 
people telling me to stop going on about my ignore policy. sorry again, im going my own way again, most people tell me they think it defeats the point. But they dont get my evil psychjology underlying the tactic which is to piss them off even more and keep winding them up. Maybe i should stop doing it. But im enjoying thinking that it winds them up at the moment, so im gonna keep banhging on about it for a while.

Ill stop when the time feels right. I can be just as childish as them. I cant even try to act all dignified and proper about everything all the time, im no fuckin saint,

so im doing some childish game playing off my own, for a bit. I'll soon get bored of that. Like theyll soon get bhored of writing posts that their victim cant even read.

I wouldnt be me if i did what everyone ele advised me to do all the time. Though i have now reached the stage where i giving each post containing dvice a lot of thought and attention. I dont simply skip them or ignore thyem, as i admit i was doing during the peak of my meltdown.

Truth is im very much better psychologically speaking. This esperience and the way ive dealt with it has made me feel stronger than ever before. So those guys have really done nothing but give me a huge lesson in personal growth.

It hurts at first, by=ut through the pain comes growth. I guess all these pompous expressions will be pissing them off too. Maybe that wht they hate me. Im really not going to fsall into the trapo of wondering why they hat em though. That woulnd not do me any good. Its more to do with them than me, thats one thing im certain of anyway. They have the bigger problem than me.

FFS im truly addicted to typing on BL. FFS GET UP AND LEAVE SHIT FACE.;
 
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mydrugbuddy said:
people telling me to stop going on about my ignore policy. sorry again, im going my own way again, most people tell me they think it defeats the point. But they dont get my evil psychjology underlying the tactic which is to piss them off even more and keep winding them up. Maybe i should stop doing it. But im enjoying thinking that it winds them up at the moment, so im gonna keep banhging on about it for a while.

Ill stop when the time feels right. I can be just as childish as them. I cant even try to act all dignified and proper about everything all the time, im no fuckin saint,

so im doing some childish game playing off my own, for a bit. I'll soon get bored of that. Like theyll soon get bhored of writing posts that their victim cant even read.

I wouldnt be me if i did what everyone ele advised me to do all the time. Though i have now reached the stage where i giving each post containing dvice a lot of thought and attention. I dont simply skip them or ignore thyem, as i admit i was doing during the peak of my meltdown.

Truth is im very much better psychologically speaking. This esperience has made me feel stronger rather than ever before. So those guys have really done nothing but give me a huge lesson in personal growth.
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You didn't read my post then, no? No bother. I believe you.

Again, think before you post. Read that post back and have a wee think about it.

Edit - This doesn't wind me up at all. I'm having a bit of a laugh at you making a cunt of yourself. Not at your drug problems btw, I don't find that funny, I'm laughing at you in general.
 
Another thing; plenty of peole on here have had their own traumas no matter how big or small to deal with. Some have been carted off to mental homes. I have to phrase this very cardefully;i dont mean 'why dont they het any stick'. i mean 'why am i getting all the stick' when theres so many people here whove been through more than their fair of troubles.

MKaybe im too open and that the problem. EADD is like a diary for me. Probabl;y the most stupid pace to write a diary, but i know that at lwast some one reading will know what im on about. Amd thats why its important to me.

So carry on givimh me the special treatment for being mental, im not gonna name the loads of others i kow of who are worse off than me and fighting much harder fights. I spsoe they keep their posts to the appropriate threads and thats a lesson i should learn.

other than than i dunno; and im really leaving this time. (this sessiosn i mean - not for good)
 
mydrugbuddy said:
Another thing; plenty of peole on here have had their own traumas no matter how big or small to deal with. Some have been carted off to mental homes. I have to phrase this very cardefully;i dont mean 'why dont they het any stick'. i mean 'why am i getting all the stick' when theres so many people here whove been through more than their fair of troubles.

MKaybe im too open and that the problem. EADD is like a diary for me. Probabl;y the most stupid pace to write a diary, but i know that at lwast some one reading will know what im on about. Amd thats why its important to me.

So carry on givimh me the special treatment for being mental, im not gonna name the loads of others i kow of who are worse off than me and fighting much harder fights. I spsoe they keep their posts to the appropriate threads and thats a lesson i should learn.

other than than i dunno; and im really leaving this time. (this sessiosn i mean - not for good)
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You've been acting the cunt. Going nuts at people for nothing then making out like they're giving you pelters when they're not. Repeating yourself, contradicting yourself, whinging like a wee bitch, talking utter shite, obvious lies etc.

Of course you're free to act the cunt all you like, I do it all the time, but your reaction to being called on it has been like that of an 8 year old child.

Edit - Almost forgot to add. MASSIVE amounts of attention seeking lol.
 
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lurching said:
^^^ Truth-bullets.
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I don't think I like the sound of that. And with that being the case I don't want to know what he's saying. Why is it still so important for them to communiucate with me ? I must be very important to them indeed to be receiving all this attention.

Right I'm taking the advice of others now and have decided to stop going on and on about my ignore wall now, and how much i dont care what they are saying behind it. As true as all that is, I'll just let the wall quietly and efficiently get on with its job.

(I think the other people advising me were right, and that's possibly what's prolonging this charade)
 
MDB, i haven't really followed this thread, you are on various medications, not sure if i'm right. Can your doctor not sign you off?

If not, stroll in, teeth nashing, wide eyed and just swipe everything on the cunts desk on the floor, if not just to see the look on the tosspots face, because after all they are, ok, i'll say mostly, cunts and tosspots. One of the worst cases of advice given, sorry.
 
What cus they don't hand out benzo scripts and sign people off straight off the bat, that makes them cunts?
 
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