hmmm, i'm going to only include pharmaceuticals that are widely prescribed - none of this 'pure cocaine' stuff that i'm seeing people post. diamorphine, sure, they script that out to heroin addicts in certain countries, but cocaine is only used very rarely in certain surgeries (nasal and eye-duct, if i recall correctly)...
well, for me it's first a matter of choosing two of the three recreational medication categories: opiates, benzodiazepines, or stimulants. personally, i'm prescribed a wide variety of benzodiazepines already through my doctor shopping adventures, but i'm going to go ahead and choose benzos anyway - as, well.. it's just NEVER enough, especially with the beast of a tolerance i've got. so we'll go with benzos and opiates, i suppose, since i never really dug many pharmaceutical stimulants - the only upper i particularly enjoy is IV cocaine/crack, and like i said earlier i'm not including that since it isn't a commonly used medication in today's world.
as far as benzos go, i rate anxiolytic ones over hypnotic, since i do have some legitimate anxiety issues to deal with - and i find the relief from social anxiety coupled with the usual euphoria one gets from these drugs to be a better 'hit' than just the euphoria one receives from the hypnotics. and since i'm getting an unlimited supply of the drug, length doesn't come into play, so i can stay away from valium - which i only enjoy for the amount of time it keeps you high. clonazepam, another of the 'marathon' benzos, is one that i do prefer a bit more, but i'm gonna narrow it down to the shorter acting ones because they have more of an immediate rush. and since lorazepam is so fucking WEAK (i've gotta take at least 6-8mg to get the effect of a single xannie bar), i'll choose alprazolam. (i'm currently scripted 120 1mg footballs a month, but an unlimited supply would be oh-so-wonderful!)
for opiates, it's a bit harder to come to a conclusion. i could choose methadone for the amount of time that it keeps you in nod-nod-land (but i'm going to disqualify this one because i already get my doses free from the clinic, and while it's far from unlimited it's enough to satisfy the methadone side of my drug use). fentanyl is another compelling choice because, while it lacks much of a rush, it's definitely THE heavy hitter when it comes to making you nod off - hell, i've taken shots of fentanyl where i didn't even realize i was high until i woke up two or three hours later, just long enough to look at the clock and realize i passed out almost immediately after taking my shot, before nodding off AGAIN. and then there's diamorphine, which... well... it's heroin, ladies and gentlemen... that should speak for itself. but in the end, i'm a man who prefers his pleasures to be immediate, and so i'm going with the rush-lovers opiate of choice, hydromorphone - more specifically, 8mg dilaudids. there is no better IV rush on the market - a fucking full-body orgasm, to say the LEAST - and an unlimited supply of these babies would keep me one smilin' cat, that's for damn sure.
so yeah, after much unnecessary exposition, my choice boils down to xanax and dilaudid. a few years ago though, liquid ketamine amps would FOR SURE take the place of either one - but i don't use k nearly as much nowadays, and certainly not as much as i do benzos/opes, so i wouldn't get as much mileage out of an unlimited supply. doesn't cost me to much to just cop a gram from my connect when i want to have a ketamine weekend once every few months (about as much as i do it, these days... but back in my rave-scene days i could kill an eightball an evening with my gf NO problem)