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Bluelighter
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Hello, this is my first thread in this forum, I hope I post in right place.
So, to begin with, let's just say that I'm 20 years old and have experimented with variuos stims and psychs for about two years. Been smoking herb for 5 years. This summer I have used mdma speed and some other rc stimulants almost every weekend. For last like 6 or 7 times I raved I took Lorazepam in the morning to help me sleep and it always saved me from having those sweaty post stimulant insomnias.
But here is why I created this thread: Last time I partied I have totally drank a lot of strong alcohol, took half of a e pill and kept on doing lines of what is thought to be good quality amphetamine. I dosed really a lot, I have done more in my life, but topped with benzos always. However, I have ran out of them and was ready for skipping this nights sleep. In the morning, around 3 or 4 hours after my last line me and my buddies decided to get really baked and started smoking this huge joint.
That's when bad things started to happen. At first I started to feel that my heart beat got faster and I was breathing deeper and deeper. I litterally felt my heart pumping very hard and started to feel very uncomfortable. The feeling that i'm having a heat attack affected me so terribly bad that I started to think that I was going to die. I started googling how to help myself. I tried to breath slowly and try to calm down, drank water, got a cold wet towel on my face and layed in bed without moving because if I moved just a little I could feel my heart beating so strong and fast it was terrifying. When I tried to go to the toilet it was incredibly hard because I thought I was gonna black out. I told myself that I will never take drugs ever again in my life and I was ready to call an ambulance if I didn't felt better soon. This terrible state continued for about 4 hours totally. I was really worried about my life. I got home with a taxi when I felt I can finally walk after eating two bananas and drinking some more water. I still felt my heart beat strongly the whole day and even felt it the day after. To say the least, it was the worst comedown ever. It was even scarier than a scary psychedelic drug trip.
So , the question is what caused this and what was it? Was it just a panic attack induced by paranoia from cannabis and speed? Maybe I did too much? Maybe that's how comedowns always felt when I wasn't taking benzos and I just forgot about it? Maybe it's a withdrawal benzo symptom? Or maybe I fucked up my body with all these stimulants and I should never take them again and if I will I will die? OR even maybe all of these things combined and gave me this hellish experience?
Dear bluelighters, I'm seeking for your advice on what should I do? Has anyone experienced something similar? Maybe you know who has? Any info and advice is appreciated!
So, to begin with, let's just say that I'm 20 years old and have experimented with variuos stims and psychs for about two years. Been smoking herb for 5 years. This summer I have used mdma speed and some other rc stimulants almost every weekend. For last like 6 or 7 times I raved I took Lorazepam in the morning to help me sleep and it always saved me from having those sweaty post stimulant insomnias.
But here is why I created this thread: Last time I partied I have totally drank a lot of strong alcohol, took half of a e pill and kept on doing lines of what is thought to be good quality amphetamine. I dosed really a lot, I have done more in my life, but topped with benzos always. However, I have ran out of them and was ready for skipping this nights sleep. In the morning, around 3 or 4 hours after my last line me and my buddies decided to get really baked and started smoking this huge joint.
That's when bad things started to happen. At first I started to feel that my heart beat got faster and I was breathing deeper and deeper. I litterally felt my heart pumping very hard and started to feel very uncomfortable. The feeling that i'm having a heat attack affected me so terribly bad that I started to think that I was going to die. I started googling how to help myself. I tried to breath slowly and try to calm down, drank water, got a cold wet towel on my face and layed in bed without moving because if I moved just a little I could feel my heart beating so strong and fast it was terrifying. When I tried to go to the toilet it was incredibly hard because I thought I was gonna black out. I told myself that I will never take drugs ever again in my life and I was ready to call an ambulance if I didn't felt better soon. This terrible state continued for about 4 hours totally. I was really worried about my life. I got home with a taxi when I felt I can finally walk after eating two bananas and drinking some more water. I still felt my heart beat strongly the whole day and even felt it the day after. To say the least, it was the worst comedown ever. It was even scarier than a scary psychedelic drug trip.
So , the question is what caused this and what was it? Was it just a panic attack induced by paranoia from cannabis and speed? Maybe I did too much? Maybe that's how comedowns always felt when I wasn't taking benzos and I just forgot about it? Maybe it's a withdrawal benzo symptom? Or maybe I fucked up my body with all these stimulants and I should never take them again and if I will I will die? OR even maybe all of these things combined and gave me this hellish experience?
Dear bluelighters, I'm seeking for your advice on what should I do? Has anyone experienced something similar? Maybe you know who has? Any info and advice is appreciated!