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lauren12k

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It's been exactly a week since I last took ecstasy (two pills, approx. 250mg total) and I still don't feel right. Apart from the depression I'm experiencing I find myself forgetting a lot of things and getting easily confused. I seem to take everything that everyone says literally like for example if someone said 'I'm on the moon right now' and I can clearly see they're not I would still freak out and suddenly think I'm back to last friday night and I'm still tripping on some other pills. Then they would have to reassure me they're joking. And if something out of the ordinary happens I start to freak out and think I'm tripping again and this is just a hallucination. Also I can't seem to relax in college at all. Sometimes when the teacher is talking her voice will become very loud and echo-y and then I get a sudden rush of anxiety and think I'm going crazy. I also have a constant headache all week and I my ears keep ringing a lot at random times in the day. Is this normal?
 
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From your threads that I have read you missy should not be doing drugs. All the signs are you do not agree with drugs. Take heed of your bodies warning/reaction and to the responses you get in all the threads you start. Ganja, pills, and trips all seem to flip you out so why keep banging your head against a wall?

I'm sure you will bounce back in time but if I read another of your threads about how you have taken something and it has flipped you out I'm going to feel really sad and disappointed.

Please be safe young lady. Drugs are not for everybody and they certainly aren't for kids.
 
I'm not acting like it. I'm simply asking if this is normal to be feeling a week later, if you can't answer my question then don't reply.
 
I'm worried your are going to hurt yourself. You only ever seem to have negative reactions to drugs even ganja flips you out. Why are you continuing to hurt yourself? Please look after yourself.
 
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From your threads that I have read you missy should not be doing drugs. All the signs are you do not agree with drugs. Take heed of your bodies warning/reaction and to the responses you get in all the threads you start. Ganja, pills, and trips all seem to flip you out so why keep banging your head against a wall?

I'm sure you will bounce back in time but if I read another of your threads about how you have taken something and it has flipped you out I'm going to feel really sad and disappointed.

Please be safe young lady. Drugs are not for everybody and they certainly aren't for kids.
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I've seen a lot of funny and dark shit from you Laugh over the last few months but this is legit one of the nicest things you've said. Lauren I remember when you started out here, I've been kinda silent about it here, in CD and other places and I have to agree, what are you doing with yourself?!


The way you've been conducting yourself... I'm not trying to parent you but any BLer will agree with me on how many tkmes they see 18 year olds here just asking questions then two weeks later we see them in TDS full of that fucking wizard mister hindsight, asking why were they not warned etc.


What I'm trying to say now is Lauren, take it slow until you get the basics and your brain develops at least until your 25 so you are biologically still growing up. Just keep it in check and don't overdo it because its getting to the stage where others shouldn't be thinking wtf is going to happen to you this time next year at this rate.


Just my 2 cents. <3


EDIT: FOR THE RECORD, THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT DOING TOO MUCH DRUGS DOES. Ecstasy in particular, that's why it must be treated with so much more respect, one night out can change your life. This is why people shouldn't do more than 150mg (ideally) to avoid these kinds of mental effects. This was definitely caused by too much, aim for less and eat nutritious meals over the next few weeks.

Stay away from other drugs especially weed or this will make your path to recovery much longer and less effective.
 
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what? where? can you reference that? perspective and context, find some before making comments like that. call me an etard call me passed it but do not call me cruel that hurts and as far as im concerned untruthful and slander. prove your point or reduct the claim.


yeh didnt think so. typical ED games.
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Dude relax I didn't mean it so harshly, hindsight my term wasn't correct, I mean it as in you have a dark sense of humour at times and its pretty funny. I'm actually sorry I got the context of the term wrong because yeah you're right it was harsh but I'm not on Bluelight 24/7 so I didn't have time to respond until now because I didn't see your post. What do you mean by typical ED games? :\
 
no worries. keep reading and im sure the players will appear. peace. sorry op for off topic chit chat!
 
I haven't been on a binge since July. The last time I did it before last week was the end of august.
 
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I haven't been on a binge since July. The last time I did it before last week was the end of august.
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Sorry then didn't realize i thought you were just binging on it. You will get better don't worry as it leads to more anxiety. believe me ive had anxiety attacks before, depersonalization and depression in the same year. Just dont worry no point polluting your mind with worry

Avoid benzo's like the plague as well, let your brain recover naturally because i saw in another thread you were thinking of using them. all i can say Is DONT you do not want to be addicted to them i got addicted after a months use and the side effects/ withdrawals are total shit

The peak withdrawels off valium were worse then my worst come down which included brain zaps practically no sleep for days, i saw you took 80 mg over a few days aswell. You are just setting your self up for disaster girl
 
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I'm not a kid. I'm 18.
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18 = teenager. You brain has not stopped developing. Honestly laugh is trying to help you, no need to bring your ego into this.

And also OP, after a binge, you should probably wait minimum 6 months. You waited less then 3 and took 500mg, which is way too high of a dose if you are trying to be safe. You would be just as fucked off 100mg with no tolerance.
 
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Yep 18 isnt old atall, i been using drugs since i was 14 years old. In all honesty it probably fucked me up more then anything i had some crippling anxiety around the age of 17

So there you go Lauren, you do realize a lot us on this forum are actually fucked up?

no point trying to emulate us, it isnt doing your brain any good already.
 
And I don't think anyone meant any disrespect by calling you a kid. 18 may not be a child but like someone else mentioned, at 18 you are still very, very young and your brain is still developing. You have got to take it easy and a break for awhile.
 
Yeah OP no disrespect at all, I just wanted you to realize that even though you are 18 your brain will keep developing unto your 20s.
 
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