I kinda dread weekends as I know Ill probably brood a lot on the usual shit, keep quiet, avoid social stuff and knock myself out.
And,, thats exactly what did happen. Again.
Declan was a bit drunk when I got home from work, I proceeded to get drunk too. I was planning on meeting some girls out at the pub but the were not there yet either so I wasnt in a rush.
Declan is a martial arts fanatic and happily held me down in various painful grips- kinda fun but a bit rough really.
Then we compared previous sexual exploits- his all topping mine. Including a chick who took him to a farm and blew a horse in front of him.
Anyway, I cant recall this as I was drunk- I passed on going out as I had too much to drink- we had a sort of tiff about casual sex and what it really meant. He explained hes just gotten rid of the last of his 3 girls and has had heaps of it and sees it as something to do with anyone when horny.
I don't.
I told him even though he is really cute, if I thought he was a loser or a total cunt then I wouldn't be interested in sex. *SHUDDER*. I said I was ok with us having this weird close friendship that snaps into rampant fucking as hes genuinely a great guy and isnt pretending to want anything else which I appreciate. He said "Oh no, shes getting all emoTiOnAl!!" and I shut up at this point as we were both drunk.
As I was being quieter than usual, he became more attentive and probably was aware he was a bit crass, so calmed down a bit. We said "G'nite lovey" to each other and the next time I saw him was this afternoon.
I couldn't sleep on Friday so I took a couple seroquels. Im saving my valium for a rainy day. That took out all Saturday when I was meant to be op shopping and sat night when I was meant to go see the girls.
Declan and I spent a relaxed evening watching dvd's, throwing things at each other and comparing burps.
Im not that anxious if we never sleep together again, I know its going to be hard to resist him but maybe Im better off just not going there. Not initiating it anyway. And he likes to put the feelers out enough to get ME to suggest it, but not actually make the first move himself. Like, he sent me another bluetooth pic of him naked in bed- which I did not respond to. Im not going to come running every time he wants to get lucky ha ha.
Besides, theres plenty more fish in the sea!
I have a date with a very cute Army guy who is Phillipino and has a shaved head soon. And Alasdair will be back from out bush in a couple weeks. AND D from Melbourne has moved to Surfer's Paradise and has opened his own restaurant. Ill be visiting him when I can. AND.... ah bugger it. Time for bed!
And,, thats exactly what did happen. Again.
Declan was a bit drunk when I got home from work, I proceeded to get drunk too. I was planning on meeting some girls out at the pub but the were not there yet either so I wasnt in a rush.
Declan is a martial arts fanatic and happily held me down in various painful grips- kinda fun but a bit rough really.
Then we compared previous sexual exploits- his all topping mine. Including a chick who took him to a farm and blew a horse in front of him.
Anyway, I cant recall this as I was drunk- I passed on going out as I had too much to drink- we had a sort of tiff about casual sex and what it really meant. He explained hes just gotten rid of the last of his 3 girls and has had heaps of it and sees it as something to do with anyone when horny.
I don't.
I told him even though he is really cute, if I thought he was a loser or a total cunt then I wouldn't be interested in sex. *SHUDDER*. I said I was ok with us having this weird close friendship that snaps into rampant fucking as hes genuinely a great guy and isnt pretending to want anything else which I appreciate. He said "Oh no, shes getting all emoTiOnAl!!" and I shut up at this point as we were both drunk.As I was being quieter than usual, he became more attentive and probably was aware he was a bit crass, so calmed down a bit. We said "G'nite lovey" to each other and the next time I saw him was this afternoon.
I couldn't sleep on Friday so I took a couple seroquels. Im saving my valium for a rainy day. That took out all Saturday when I was meant to be op shopping and sat night when I was meant to go see the girls.
Declan and I spent a relaxed evening watching dvd's, throwing things at each other and comparing burps.
Im not that anxious if we never sleep together again, I know its going to be hard to resist him but maybe Im better off just not going there. Not initiating it anyway. And he likes to put the feelers out enough to get ME to suggest it, but not actually make the first move himself. Like, he sent me another bluetooth pic of him naked in bed- which I did not respond to. Im not going to come running every time he wants to get lucky ha ha.
Besides, theres plenty more fish in the sea!
I have a date with a very cute Army guy who is Phillipino and has a shaved head soon. And Alasdair will be back from out bush in a couple weeks. AND D from Melbourne has moved to Surfer's Paradise and has opened his own restaurant. Ill be visiting him when I can. AND.... ah bugger it. Time for bed!