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yougeekay

yougeekay

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okay so here is my observation.

i sell weed, so i smoke good kush ALL DAY EVERYDAY, an i mean like 7 blunts aday. recently i had to stop for probation, an ive noticed that i have much better capacity to hold a conversation with someone, and in general im more outgoing. an i guess i never noticed when im stoned all day how introverted i can be, not that im not happy floating around all day :), its just a differnt happy being sober. but i feel like weed really does just take me out of myself, almost the same way lsd or shrooms does but obviously not in every aspect so dont nit pick at that statement, haha.
 
i have done lots of acid. an the reason i say ego dissolving is because when im on psycs im so in my head that its hard for me to talk sometimes when im actually tripping hard. but i feel like weed literally can make me think about nothing, like the days float by, emotions are not as potent when you live life high. im not saying it totally dissolves but just a little, it may not even be that but its similar i cant put my finger on it, like ego numbing.

the point is does anyone else feel this way?
 
Weed makes some people slow down, or as some would say "have a conversation with themselves". It often makes people notice things about the world or themselves that they otherwise wouldn't, and see events from a different perspective.

I wouldn't term it ego loss, but it makes one think about their actions and I think this can naturally change someone's personality...

Nice 3-6 avvy btw...
 
no never feel that way

a bigger question here is why u waste all the kush with blunts

of course, psychedelics are supposed to lessen the impact of your ego. but that does not equate to dulled senses and emotions. quite the opposite
 
OP, seriously, that aint ego-destruction or whatever.

just called being blazed n burnt out a wee bit ;)



i suggest for a truly ego-killing experience, get 5-7 hits of good acid, 2 grams of shrooms, and a bag of ganja.

find a lovely place to trip on your own, away from prying eyes, and away from a forest.

enjoy not knowing who you are and total loss of self, bro


edit- what im saying is, when u DO experience ego-death, trust me, you'll know!
 
people always do this when i mention ego death on here, im not trying to experience it (if i do its whatever, bring it on), didnt ask how to get there (obviously taking a bunch of psycs will do the trick), and ive done PLENTY of very good acid, and shrooms.

sorry if i dont quite know what it is cause i havnt fully experienced it, ive only mildy felt what could have been the oncoming of something like that.

but Outta Pocket kinda got it right for me, i feel so in thought an all over the place that i lose mySELF kinda. (an thanks your the first one to mention the avy on here, that first cd was so hard)

an i smoke blunts because money aint a thang an i got it like that :) an you ever smoked a blunt of kush in a garcia vega? just something about it man, its whats good, one of the finer things in life.
 
i smoke bongs, yo.

but im pickin up what you're throwin down, so why don't we all go to china-town?
for a meal, maybe veal?
or a microwave chow mein, lemme break the seal
 
Sega420 said:
OP, seriously, that aint ego-destruction or whatever.

just called being blazed n burnt out a wee bit ;)



i suggest for a truly ego-killing experience, get 5-7 hits of good acid, 2 grams of shrooms, and a bag of ganja.

find a lovely place to trip on your own, away from prying eyes, and away from a forest.

enjoy not knowing who you are and total loss of self, bro


edit- what im saying is, when u DO experience ego-death, trust me, you'll know!
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:|


Camping is fucking awesome.
 
Sega420 said:
OP, seriously, that aint ego-destruction or whatever.
etc.
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Been there done that (not tryin to come off as high and mighty just saying I have perspective). I didn't mean slow as in burnt out, but rather slowing down and become more attuned to the world around oneself. Surely this is one similarity between cannabis and psychedelics IME.

Yougeekay I know what you mean about losing yourself. My situation used to be the same as yours, I smoked a LOT of good weed all the time. Part of that "lost" feeling is burnout, part of it can be just smoking ALL the time, when you get into a conversation you may not have too much to say. I really dislike that feeling now but back then it didn't bother me much. Still smoke on the daily but switched it up, no blunts at all now all glass and vape. The burnout is less. Just saying that if you don't like the feeling try smoking a little less. But fuck it, smoke however you like blunts, joints, glass whatever.

P.S. I just noticed your clever username, you inspired me to pour up a 4 in Pimp's memory %)
 
on that much acid, a forrest in pitch black darkness at night would be a sucky place to be.


im saying go camping, but like, on a hill overlooking somewhere.
 
UGK lol

I know EXACTLY what you are talking about. I used to smoke every night and morning.. I just let the time pass by, and dont get my wrong, i loved every moment of it and i was happy.. but now since being sober for 2 weeks i'm a different kind of happy. when i was smoking i always just put off finding a girl.. then i stopped, and it turns out (coincidence?) that i find a girl.
I am just a different person. i can't say which one I like more, though.
 
Outta Pocket said:
P.S. I just noticed your clever username, you inspired me to pour up a 4 in Pimp's memory %)
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oh you lucky SOB, i can never find any lean. but yes, i looove ugk, they were deep.

and yea i really never noticed how it really is burning out, its kind of tought to admit when you love weed so much, but it does suck talking to people and having not shit to say cause all you can do is think, an you aint really thinkin about shit. im glad i had this sober time, i think everything happens for a reason an had i not been put on probation i probably wouldnt have noticed this for who knows how long, just living in a cloud of smoke. when i can go back to it ima try to keep it a little more real, i also believe having perspective the next time around will make it easier for that not to happen again.
 
yougeekay said:
and yea i really never noticed how it really is burning out, its kind of tought to admit when you love weed so much, but it does suck talking to people and having not shit to say cause all you can do is think, an you aint really thinkin about shit. im glad i had this sober time, i think everything happens for a reason an had i not been put on probation i probably wouldnt have noticed this for who knows how long, just living in a cloud of smoke. when i can go back to it ima try to keep it a little more real, i also believe having perspective the next time around will make it easier for that not to happen again.
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In terms of your situation I basically went through those exact same circumstances years back. The key to maintaining the balance is to recognize those two extremes, cause I enjoy that smoke so much more when I get up & out for the day, have fun in other ways, and make sure I'm not over-analyzing things or thinking myself insane. One of the main reasons I smoke is stress relief, but if I overdo it nowadays I tend to over-think all the shit on my mind and it just makes me anxious. I think this has to do a lot with getting older, to get what I want done I can't be high 24/7/365 like at one point in life, too many priorities not enough energy. It's not appealing like it once was.

P.S.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m-IS2js72WI
 
yougeekay said:
i have done lots of acid. an the reason i say ego dissolving is because when im on psycs im so in my head that its hard for me to talk sometimes when im actually tripping hard. but i feel like weed literally can make me think about nothing, like the days float by, emotions are not as potent when you live life high. im not saying it totally dissolves but just a little, it may not even be that but its similar i cant put my finger on it, like ego numbing.

the point is does anyone else feel this way?
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Dude let me make sure I understand you. I think a lot of other people were mistaking what you said about a different ego to mean that you were experiencing "ego death". When really you were just talking about having a totally different personality right?

I can attest to this as well. I have smoked every day (literally, every day, no breaks) for about 4-5 years now and have recently been thinking about my decision. I see no reason to stop. My grades aren't shitty, I have a bunch of great friends, I have no trouble getting girls. HOWEVER, my memory is fucking shit. My friends were poking fun at me the other day because I had them repeat a story that they had told me earlier that day and I was like "does this happen a lot?" and they were like "seriously you have the worst memory of anyone I know. It's not bad once I remind you about something, but you always need that sentence or two to trigger the memory".

Hearing that has made me realize how different weed has made me. I'm still really outgoing and personable, but I feel that I could be more without the weed. And seeing as my grades are pretty decent, I now wonder what grades I could be getting if I stopped smoking.

I just don't see any reasonable way to quit. I am definitely psychologically addicted. I had to attend an alcohol class the other day and we filled out this survey about addiction and I went through it again for fun to see how "addicted to weed" I really am. I found out that I'm in like the worst category (stage IV), where coming back without professional help is nearly impossible.

Now I KNOW that there's a bunch of proof that you can't get addicted to weed, so I'm not saying that I'm truly addicted. But I'm pretty damn close.
 
Sega420 said:
on that much acid, a forrest in pitch black darkness at night would be a sucky place to be.


im saying go camping, but like, on a hill overlooking somewhere.
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Ah. My most frequented campsite is next to a river that reflects moonlight well on a clear night.

Pitch black is cool too. Although, I spent half the time with my eyes closed in the tent. The next half was spent smoking.%)

Epic sunrise. 8o
 
I can attest to this to, seems like you do become more without weed and your head clears up. The thing that sucks balls about weed is everyone knows it really isn't brain damaging and harmful and such, that they think they should continue to smoke to no ends. (me)
 
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