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WD blues, anyone?

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I don't fuk with opiates for this reason but hang in there, it'll be over soon enough. keep yourself busy
 
^^ Staying busy.. that's what the internet is for. :D

It wouldn't be so bad, except that it's my first day and I know how much worse it gets.
(To complicate things further, I've been staying at my mom's house for a few months and she just found some of my paraphernalia about 15 min ago.. lol, when it rains it really really pours I suppose!)
 
oh yeah im with you man. haha your names funny me and my heroin buddy always used to call it smackeroni - the san fernando treat
 
Get a plan set in place for after you go thru WDs. If you dont, all this pain your going thru will be done for no reason.

Kicking is very easy, Staying clean is the hard part.
 
it does help to know that your not the only one but it's also frustrating when you read threads with people asking "what do i do with all this dope??" which is why BL is a double edged sword when in WD

anway what opi are you w/ding from with what ROA?
are you just unable to re-up currently or are you trying to kick it?
 
on my first day i know what your going threw, it took me 2 hrs just to get my self to get out of bed id give anything in the world to be on my 3rd or 4th day good luck bro
 
smackncheese said:
Hi TDS.

Anyone else in the throes of opiate WD's at the moment?
It would be nice not to feel like the only one in the world who's trying to tolerate this kind of insurmountable agony. :\
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Yes sir, actually currently have about 1mg of sub left which i will try and stretch through the next 4 days. I'm currently feeling somewhat shitty so I feel you on that man.
I'm just so tired of this endless cycle and I want a life back and not want to constantly depend on opioids.
Just try and eat healthy foods such as soup and fruit.( find fruit works great)Stock up on your comfort meds such as, Immodium, advil, and maybe a few benzos (xanax, klonopin, but don't overdue it.)
Feel free to PM me over the next week or so. Don;t feel alone man, I know where your coming from and it helps to talk about it:)
 
Feeling shitty right now. Got to go to work tomorrow. Called out today. This life sucks. While I don't have the balls to do it I admire those that do. I am talking about suicide. This life is pointless.
 
ya man i got 3 weeks today n i got the ultimate blues. Im just hoping soon i will be able to post back saying i got 6 months n feel like a champ : )
 
lozgod said:
Feeling shitty right now. Got to go to work tomorrow. Called out today. This life sucks. While I don't have the balls to do it I admire those that do. I am talking about suicide. This life is pointless.
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Man I feel you, I really do. But then your giving up on the challenge.
Life is full of many obstacles and it really tests you mentally.
Not only am I addicted to opiates I also suffer from semi-severe OCD anxiety disorders and depression which can be crippling.
Just think, your meant to be here for a reason and cutting your life short is not the way to go about it.
I'm currently attempting my second detox and it's hard man.
Our brains are currently being stripped of our endorphins. If you can, please just try to eat some fruit and do some light excersize and I promise you will feel better.
Things can't really get worse and it will be a lifelong process with this addiction shit. Please believe your life is worth living.
 
askaboutme said:
anway what opi are you w/ding from with what ROA?
are you just unable to re-up currently or are you trying to kick it?
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IV heroin.

It's a bit of both, actually. I was trying to get through the kick because my money ran out and a bunch of bad things started happening at once.. I just felt it was time.

Unfortunately I caved tonight and found myself a balloon. Tonight's been wonderful, but I know I'll be hating myself in the morning.
 
When you guys say 'blues' does it affect you such as....constantly thinking of old memories and tearing up ? And just generally feeling choked up in the moment?

Cause i take opiates 3/4 days a week (30/mgs hydro) for a while and now after the days of taking i get this kinda depression. I am on my 4th day of feeling like this (been happening the last month after usage).

I have no real physical WD as i've never used 24/7, just this extra kinda eery depression.

I've had downers the day after E but this is some sort of lasting depression....anybody gone through something similar?
 
Going through WD makes me depressed in a scary way. I've heard it said before that getting off opiates leaves the user feeling like someone very close and familiar to them has died, gone forever, but they don't know who. I get that big time. Cold turkey withdrawal has had me broke down and bawling my eyes out a number of times. When it got to the point of contemplating suicide for days, I knew I had to get professional help.

That's why, this time around when I found I had been using daily for a few months, I HAD TO taper down my daily usage. This helped more than anything I can think of. I highly, strongly, adamantly recommend you find a way to make yourself taper down. It's so much easier physically and mentally.
 
JayJohnson said:
Going through WD makes me depressed in a scary way. I've heard it said before that getting off opiates leaves the user feeling like someone very close and familiar to them has died, gone forever, but they don't know who. I get that big time. Cold turkey withdrawal has had me broke down and bawling my eyes out a number of times. When it got to the point of contemplating suicide for days, I knew I had to get professional help.
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Yea its some weird ominous sadness that makes me tear up several times a day. I guess some people are more sensitive to it?

Because if i use 3/4 days in a row around 20-30mgs a day (which is considered not really that heavy of use) the sadness comes ... i'm not sure how long it will last as i've always had a 3/4 day break then back at it. .... looks like i'll have 6/7 day break this time to see if it goes .
 
i may soon be in the same boat. i'm battling with my methadone clinic; they say my method of funding is about to expire (a low-income voucher program) and i'll be 21-day detoxed if i don't find another way to pay. methadone w/d is the worst: i've been through it twice in my life and i swore i'd never go through it again.

to everybody who is kicking: hang in there
 
^ Shit son. Methadone wd is a lot worse than for the heroin. I wish you the best of luck.

It's been 24 hours since I've put any dope in my system, and I feel okay. I went through about 3 days of withdrawal before doing a hit. Yesterday I did a hit half the size of the one I did before. Today I feel surprisingly alright. Just a bit of leg pain and some unpleasantly heightened sensations. I hope it lasts.
 
Im fucking dieing here man.

My fucking girlfriend of 2 years left me for a homeless guy she just met, i had to quit my job recently and move back in with my parents due to a depression ive been in for months now, I told my psy-doc that I was detoxing this weekend and she told my parents who are blowing it out of proportion and tweaking out about the situation, I have only 2 friends I can even talk to and one of them lives 30 minutes away , the other is just too fun of a person to be arround when in withdrawal, I cant even decide if I really want to kick or if I really am just going through the motions.

I was watching the wire the past few days and I heard a quote that has really hit home really hard, something to the extent of "shame is some tricky shit, makes you want to change your ways, then beats you back down when you think you cant"

The problem that im having the most trouble with about kicking this time is that ive been using mostly oxycodone over the past two months, but the past two weaks have been suboxone, and I am on about 48 hours since dosing anything, and its really fucking me up because I felt worse yesterday than I do today, but I know suboxone withdrawal usually doesnt get bad for me until like a week or so. I dont know if im already starting to get better due to the short term of continuous daily consumption this go arround, or if its the suboxone from two weeks making the withdrawal last a month instead of a weak... In other words, I have no idea if its getting better or worse, and im kind of scared to find out, I really just want to smoke some fucking bud but I have zero assets that could be utilized to obtain pot, and no fucking smokes either.

Fuck, im so tired of this, I hope I dont make the same mistakes again after this bout....
 
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