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Wat things have you lost/given up to your addiction?

hmm the list
Failed outta college twice - now on my 3rd attempt and now drug free so we'll see
3 cars - 2 wrecked by me one by my blacked out friend who randomly stole my car
lots of trust with my family
2 computers pawned
My drivers license
Only girl ive ever loved she left cause i wouldnt stop partying
many jobs lost due to laziness/being high
plenty of brain cells and memories
ive lost more friends due to quitting drugs then doing them so i guess thats real shit for ya
no clue how much money ive used/stole/pawn money
almost lost my freedom with a felony possesion charge
My health is fucked due to my wrecks fractured a verterbrae broke my hip in 2 places my wrist ruptured 4 organs have more scars than i can count will always haveta take pain pills to function daily which i dont really like too much
But its all good now havent used in over a month or even drank a beer so i guess its time to try life the way 75% of everyone does it
 
great thread

i lost my first gf for weed, my second gf for coke (that was a fucking mistake...mostly because i realised how shitty the coke is i get 9 times out of 10 )
my best bud at the time and i got kicked out our apartment because we smoked and coked at least 500-600 dollars week .....he didn't have a job either
many lost days of pay because i would call out to get high (which would be fine if it werent for the shit we're in now 8) )
i totaled my first car when i blacked out for a few days on klonopin and xanax

that's all the negative shit i can think of due to my habit of weed and 4 months with coke everyday...
everything else is pretty much equal gain/loss...and lots of positives.
 
iv lost 3 xbox 360s
a few real good homies that i truly loved in a totally strait way just because i didnt care about what they where saying i just always offerd them drugs and never really supported them
a house
my first dog
my sanity
 
-license
-4 cars
-fiance
-college...twice
-house
-four hundred $ a day habit, six years of heroin addiction before i recently kicked, u tell me...
-self respect
-friends...those who died while dancing with needles along side me, and those smart enough to avoid me,
-trust of my family....most painful, that of my little sister. it is difficult to watch adoration turn to disgust....once they realize that the party isn't quite a party...she watched me go from rava kid to junky in the span of a heartbeat; and no matter what the reasons are, that's not a great excuse when it comes to explaining a three year long absence in the life of someone who loved/needed u.
i'm twenty six. i remember....only bits and pieces of my life since fifteen. wow.
 
Reading all the losses makes me wonder if it's worth it at all.. Drugs can be used as tools to expand our perceptions on reality, but there's a fine line between using and abusing.

I've lost my memory
my sanity
my friends
my car
my job
my innocence
my trust
I'm lucky I haven't lost my family yet, and I have a boyfriend who loves me so much.
 
Pawned a bunch of shit
Missed lots of moments i could of spent time with real friends/ my family but got high/went off to do drugs with my drug buddies instead
Dont take care of myself, poor hygiene/dental
Spent all the money i made last year (9,000) on drugs paycheck to paycheck all on drugs THEN dipped into my savings (5k, vanished)
Dropped out of college, but am now back in thankfully after recoving from a previous addiction and am doing very well this semester (about the only thing going good for me right now)
Lost my job, I hated it anyway and it was a main factor i did more drugs to even get through the days working there (restaurant)
Oh yeah, lying, making up excuses to my parets to go out to score at one in the morning, stealing from friends, family, strangers, driving while high, etc.

Yeaaah.
 
wow, i feel for alot of you.
i lost alot of money.
i dont enjoy most days unless i have something to look forward to (herb, liquour, drugs).
i'm sure there is more i just can't think.
 
Thizzerfershizzer said:
Ive given up the word "no"

i just cant turn down a pill, a line, a join, anything


Ive given up my health (for a while)
Ive given up my sanity (regained..kinda)
Ive given up trust on a LOT of people
Ive given up relationships
feels bad man =/
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Same here to all that, i was speaking to my ex just earlier and i was a bit of asecret junkie the whole time we were together (before and after to i was using more) and i said i'd finished my rehab thing and was absolutely drug free no trams to ease me off the oxys and H and she said "so i'll finally get to knowthe real you?" And it struck me thatsince 2002/3 i've almost always been on drugs of some sort and the people i've met as all been under the influence so to speak.
 
girlfriend, countless friends, money, opportunity, respect, reality

all gone

bye bye
 
What's the most expensive personal possession you've lost/sold because of drugs

I managed to lose my Ipod and notebook for uni the other night. I'd been drinking which probably didn't help. When i'm under the influence I tend to be a bit forgetful. I ended up at someones house so i'm hoping it will turn up there! Fingers crossed :(

So whats the most you've lost when under the influence? Or whats the single most expensive possession you've sold to fuel your drug use?

I'm hoping you guys can help me feel better...
 
Well i lost my fucking debit card yesterday while under the influence of H .. i cancelled though so hopefully no one got that shit.

I've locked my keys in my car many times ... sold my zune .. laptop .. shitty shatty.
 
probably my drugs..but I probably ate it all or smoked it all.

but ive lost my cell phone (my razor:() to crackheads, had to pay for new pair of glasses since my last pair got destroyed when I got jumped, also lost my skateboard to those fuckers:| also had a hefty bill from getting a few stitches dammit
 
Many friends, most of my friends are ravers, or junkies, and I stopped talking to my non-drug using friends.

A chances for an education, I flunked out of school, I used to be a 3.6 GPA honors student.

My mental health, I'm E-Tarded, too many ecstasy rolls, and too much abuse of MDMA like rolling every weekend, I rave every weekend. I suffer from greater anxiety, I'm usually more depressed, and my memory just wasn't as sharp as it used to be. My memory these days are shot, and seems like I have ADD.

I don't have nice clothing, or a chance to get fancy clothing, well except for those phat pants, for raves.

I miss many gadgets such as an iphone, or other electronic goods, because my money is spent on drugs.

Financially I'm $5,000 in debt, if I wasn't using drugs I would had have $10,000 to $15,000 in surplus, and saved in my savings account. It has really drained from wallets.

-PLUR
 
What have I lost?

- the ability to enjoy life sober
- spent the majority of my inheritance money on dope/oxy
- had a full college scholarship, lost it because I was too fucked up to go to class
- the ability to relate to any "non-junkies"
- any chance at good credit ever again :)
- touch with reality

What have I gained?
- lots of good times (but at what cost?)
- felony criminal record (not drug charge, but was because of drugs)
- a bitchy probation officer lol
 
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