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Wat things have you lost/given up to your addiction?

• weed
• A kickass 'surf at home/in your converted pool" system
• My dog
• Two sets of used loveseat covers like you'd see in an eighties movie (still regret that one)
 
New Jersey
my ability to be comfortable with drugs
a shitload of cash
respect
my ability to effectively gauge my meals
 
lost.. hmm....
*money
*a job
*trust n respect
*friends
*a clean record
*weight
*relationships
*freedom (getting locked up) and losing freedom in a sense that you will never be free again once you become an addict because you stay an addict for life. even long after active addiction.. always gonna have to fight for another day clean
*my life
*my happiness
*my will to live!!!
 
Ive given up the word "no"

i just cant turn down a pill, a line, a join, anything

I'm trying to regain that word and slowly its working but i still waste my money all the time on shit i don't need (i.e. drugs)

Ive given up friendships
Ive given up my health (for a while)
Ive given up my sanity (regained..kinda)
Ive given up trust on a LOT of people
Ive given up relationships
feels bad man =/

I'm trying to regain those things though and slowly its coming back to me!
Just going to take a while
 
I gave up boring friends for newer, funner ones, I gave up pounding 70
+ dollars of alcohol at a club for instead 30-40 dollars of amphetamines, I gave up sitting around at home being bored and jerking off to shitty free porn for going out, walking around, meeting girls, riding my motorcycle, I gave up melancholy for hypomania.

not too bad of a trade imho.
 
^Not too bad of a trade for now, at least; but take it easy brother, don't outrun yourself. :)

This isn't really a "loss", but I have a long colloid scar on the top of my left arm due to circumstances surrounding a xanax blackout, and it sucks. People ask me about it all the time and I never know what to say, I mean, have you ever tried saying to somebody "I was blacked out on xanax and sliced open my own arm with a serated kitchen knife"? It doesn't exactly garner the most positive response -- and it fucking sucks because I'm the most peaceful person you'll ever meet, and I only cut myself because I was so uninhibited from the xanax and my girlfriend of 3 years was leaving me and it was literally the worst period of my life that I have ever been through. And I just feel lucky that I got to keep 99% of the function of my hand and arm, and just have to deal with an unsightly scar. Oh well, so much for that -- so now I don't even own a knife anymore, I mean I really don't own a single knife in my kitchen, I only use plastic ones. Knives fucking terrify me now. :(

In addition, I've lost many DVDs and other trivial shit that I don't really miss too much. Luckily I never sold my dad's saxophone or my guitar or anything that's actually important to me.

I fucking hate xanax; and I fucking love myself for quitting that shit permanently. And I fucking love anyone who read this far down my post. :) <3
 
What have I lost to addiction? Almost everything

*My health- 13 OD's, permanent hole in the left ventricle of my heart because of Crack use
*Money/Material Items- I added up how much I've spent on drugs over the past few years and it came out to be around $100,000...that is just disgusting to me
*My family/friends- they don't want me around much anymore
*My lifestyle- I used to live in a very nice apartment, with lavish spending habits, with a nice car...I now live in a halfway house with nothing but a few clothes and maybe $20 or so


I've been clean for a bit now, and all that I lost is slowly coming back. Staying clean is one of the hardest things I've ever done.
 
hmm, alot of money
the few friends i did have, i never see anymore
some of my sanity
i took a random piss test for work friday after using thursday night and friday morning before work. i did drink alot of water and suppliments and lots of suboxone prior to the test. i'm hoping i can blame a possitive for opiates on the suboxone if the dilution didn't help. so hopefully i won't loose my job. not that it would devistate me or leave me totally screwed. I really just don't want to go out like that.
i totaled a nice truck, but i recovered most of that expense
i'm sure there's more.
i always tried to stay in control and never steal or pawned anything.
i don't think i've damaged my health to bad.
 
my intellegence
my reputation
ALL my friends
my money
my self respect
all my dvd's and video games
alot of accessories pawned
my mental sanity
almost my liver
 
friends
money
my hamster
my skateboard
my parakeet
my screw driver
my laptop
my car
my computer seat
my girlfriend
my balls
...


ya, my balls. Was a dare. Don't ask.
 
i've regretfully pawned in 2 good bass guitars i owned for a fraction of their value just for meth. i've also traded in 2 xbox', though im not sure why i bought another one after the first time because i lost interest in video games. a decent 19" computer screen in amongst that as well plus a few other electrical goods of which i'd rather not think about right now. that's what a meth addiction did to me.
 
VDUBNBUD said:
friends
money
my hamster
my skateboard
my parakeet
my screw driver
my laptop
my car
my computer seat
my girlfriend
my balls
...


ya, my balls. Was a dare. Don't ask.
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can I ask how you lost your hamster and parakeet to drugs?
 
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the trust of my family and friends.
lots of my friends in general.
self-respect.
lots of money.
my awesome drumset.
my awesome guitar.
a lot of time.
girl.
a lot more shit, i don't wanna think about this anymore.
 
A car, two gorgeous guitars, a few girls, friends, money, credit, jobs, self respect, my reputation, some of who i am as a person, among other things....
 
My reputation, people still won't believe I'm not strung out on drugs anymore.

Trusting others, I have been fucked over so many times because of drugs by others.

Money, I'm guessing a few grand. I really have no idea.

I almost lost my life.

Girls, friends, family trust, the list goes on.
 
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