sonicwhite
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- Aug 8, 2012
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Okay back in 06 I had been hurt so bad...In may of 05 i went thru a psychosis. I think it was do to coming down off meth and my ex breaking up with me that thru me over the edge. I had this psychosis for seven months. two of those month's I was locked in jail. Okay I get out and after getting on abilify I started to come back to normal but I had seen all the things I lost. Like my ex, day's in jail.....And just my pride because it was a humbling experience. So when 06 rolled around and IDK if I'm supposed or allowed to talk about this. But I needed something to get me out of the rut I was in. I turned to my faith.....I started to notice that when I would smoke weed, my head would go off to places and I would imagine the strangest stuff. During that period of august of 05 to june of 06 I was still using meth even tho I had become psychotic and was still out there. And I used E sometimes and I even tripped shrooms which I turned to my faith and I had no withdrawals. No burst's to be compulsive. Everything just seemed to make sense for me. It was the first time since I was thirteen that I wasn't on something like weed or screwing ppl over because I wanted my next fix. So my goal in life is to help others Thats my motivator. What's your's?