anonymous777
Bluelighter
Hey bluelighters, I would like to share my story just to get some feedback as well as to serve as guidance for other new users.
My old friends were all getting into beans, and before I had researched well enough I tried it with them. Like every other drug we have tried, it has to be in excess. My first night rolling I ate 4 pills. Rolled my ass off Neeless to say, I fell in love but had an awful comedown and didn't sleep untill the next night.
4 weeks later I roll again, 4 pills. Rolled for a little while, then went into an awful panic about 3 hours after dropping, felt like I was going to die. Felt like I couldn't remember do breath and had to do it consciously. DIdn't sleep untill the next night again. (possibly pipes)
4 weeks later roll again, 4 pills. Rolled my ass off, amazing night. Awful comedown
2 Weeks later. Take 2 pills and go out. I didn't feel anything, then 3 hours after dropping I fell into this dreadful mode where I felt like I was seriously going to die. I had myself convinced I had a brain hemorrage. I tured into an extremely paranoid hypochondriac for a good 12 hours. Almost took myself to the hospital. (almost positive pipes)
After reading about EVERY thread on bluelight, I now understand all the things I've been doing wrong. (Too high dose, rolls too close, NOT TESTING PILLS) I also have slight HPPD (in my opinion), and have noticed a definite slow down in my cognitive function.
It's been a month now, and the anxiety and depression has subsided quite a bit.
My question is: How long should I wait to roll again? I have put myself on a strict break for no less than 6 months, but is this going to be enough? After a 6 month break should I be able to roll off a normal dose (100-200mg)? Or have I fuxxored up my tolerance too badly? I respect this drug greatly now, and will be disciplined enough to do what it takes to use it responsibly. I will never use again without testing.
Also: My best friends are now abusing the shit out of this drug, using up to 1g MDMA per weekend. It's completely depressing, because I have had to explain to them the dangers and they will not listen. I have had to cut them out of my life because they don't want to listen to why I don't condone their use. How can I help my friends?
TLDR: Binged a small bit. Is 6 months enough to get tolerance back. How do I help friends that are abusing.
THanks, peace and love.
My old friends were all getting into beans, and before I had researched well enough I tried it with them. Like every other drug we have tried, it has to be in excess. My first night rolling I ate 4 pills. Rolled my ass off Neeless to say, I fell in love but had an awful comedown and didn't sleep untill the next night.
4 weeks later I roll again, 4 pills. Rolled for a little while, then went into an awful panic about 3 hours after dropping, felt like I was going to die. Felt like I couldn't remember do breath and had to do it consciously. DIdn't sleep untill the next night again. (possibly pipes)
4 weeks later roll again, 4 pills. Rolled my ass off, amazing night. Awful comedown
2 Weeks later. Take 2 pills and go out. I didn't feel anything, then 3 hours after dropping I fell into this dreadful mode where I felt like I was seriously going to die. I had myself convinced I had a brain hemorrage. I tured into an extremely paranoid hypochondriac for a good 12 hours. Almost took myself to the hospital. (almost positive pipes)
After reading about EVERY thread on bluelight, I now understand all the things I've been doing wrong. (Too high dose, rolls too close, NOT TESTING PILLS) I also have slight HPPD (in my opinion), and have noticed a definite slow down in my cognitive function.
It's been a month now, and the anxiety and depression has subsided quite a bit.
My question is: How long should I wait to roll again? I have put myself on a strict break for no less than 6 months, but is this going to be enough? After a 6 month break should I be able to roll off a normal dose (100-200mg)? Or have I fuxxored up my tolerance too badly? I respect this drug greatly now, and will be disciplined enough to do what it takes to use it responsibly. I will never use again without testing.
Also: My best friends are now abusing the shit out of this drug, using up to 1g MDMA per weekend. It's completely depressing, because I have had to explain to them the dangers and they will not listen. I have had to cut them out of my life because they don't want to listen to why I don't condone their use. How can I help my friends?
TLDR: Binged a small bit. Is 6 months enough to get tolerance back. How do I help friends that are abusing.
THanks, peace and love.
