Hello my name is Chris and this is my first post to bluelight. I’ve been struggling to get off opioids for a few months now and I really want to be done with it. I would like to use this thread as a day to day open journal/discussion with my detox. I think it would help me and hopefully help others who struggle with addiction. Here’s Just a little about me. I’m 29 and over the past 10 years I’ve prolly been sober for about 9 of them. It seems I’m stuck in some kind of cycle with relapse. I’ve had 4.5 years 2 years 1.7 years and 1.8 years clean. Every time I relapse it’s for about 3-5 months and it’s awful. I pick up right where I left off. Blow every dollar I have saved and put myself into a lot of debt. Ruin good relationships. Loose a lot of weight. And a lot of other consequences. Anyway I don’t want to make this very long tonight because I’m not sober yet. Tomorrow morning I’m going to start to take suboxone and I do not want to be on it very long. Maybe 30 days max is my plan. I know I can get away with taking a quarter of a strip in the am and a quarter in the pm and 100% normal. I’ve been smoking around 6-10 30mg roxies a day for the past few months. And tomorrow is going to be my new sobriety date.
ps. i don't know if this is the right place to do something like this on this forum.
ps. i don't know if this is the right place to do something like this on this forum.
