Lucy Bookit
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- Nov 19, 2014
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I have a chronic type of autoimmune arthritis, called ankylosing spondylitis. I was diagnosed at 11, and already have a great amount of joint damage at age 23 (well, turning 24 Sunday ), and one day will most likely have a fused spine as that is the disease progression. I experience extreme, excruciating pain every day in the morning, during the day depending upon if I'm having a flare, and at night after work once all the stress of the day kinda hits. I'm being prescribed hydrocodone (10mg 4xday), which is my first experience with pain management. But this is not my first time with opioids...
I've used some form of opioid since age 16, within a month after taking my first pill I shot oxy. I have used on and off from then until I got my own apartment, my last year in college. I started making tea, as well as having a friend now who used blues, so I was using more and more as well as my boyfriend and I getting addicted to coke. Those two combined and I was on a tear, so that by this time last year I had lost my job, my boyfriend and I were spending more than our rent on coke, I was daily making tea or taking kratom or going to the 'doc in a box' for back problems, and I even tried to OD on benzos (luckily, I woke up).
Anyway, now, we've moved to a new state and haven't been using drugs. I'm being prescribed hydrocodone for my arthritis pain, especially because I asked for pain management and problems getting my arthritis medication/my doctor forgetting to fill my script for Enbrel and giving me the run around twice. My flares have been bad, and I'm glad that I have something I can take even if it doesn't cover all the pain. I've also done physical therapy and been exercising, generally treating my body better.
I am worried about fuckin this up really badly. I already had to go through w/d because I finished my last script early, and used lope until I could fill the new one (still early) today. My disease is only going to get worse, and my body will get more damaged, so I don't want to over do it too much so that I don't raise up my tolerance too fast. I also don't want to do anything to jeopardize this relief in the future. I had been strong willed towards the end of the script, and my boyfriend is going to help limit how many I use per week.
TL;DR: If anyone has any advice about being previously addicted to opioids, and using them properly for chronic pain diseases, I'd really like any advice or experience. I don't want to fuck this up for me now or down the road.
Thanks,
Lucy
I've used some form of opioid since age 16, within a month after taking my first pill I shot oxy. I have used on and off from then until I got my own apartment, my last year in college. I started making tea, as well as having a friend now who used blues, so I was using more and more as well as my boyfriend and I getting addicted to coke. Those two combined and I was on a tear, so that by this time last year I had lost my job, my boyfriend and I were spending more than our rent on coke, I was daily making tea or taking kratom or going to the 'doc in a box' for back problems, and I even tried to OD on benzos (luckily, I woke up).
Anyway, now, we've moved to a new state and haven't been using drugs. I'm being prescribed hydrocodone for my arthritis pain, especially because I asked for pain management and problems getting my arthritis medication/my doctor forgetting to fill my script for Enbrel and giving me the run around twice. My flares have been bad, and I'm glad that I have something I can take even if it doesn't cover all the pain. I've also done physical therapy and been exercising, generally treating my body better.
I am worried about fuckin this up really badly. I already had to go through w/d because I finished my last script early, and used lope until I could fill the new one (still early) today. My disease is only going to get worse, and my body will get more damaged, so I don't want to over do it too much so that I don't raise up my tolerance too fast. I also don't want to do anything to jeopardize this relief in the future. I had been strong willed towards the end of the script, and my boyfriend is going to help limit how many I use per week.
TL;DR: If anyone has any advice about being previously addicted to opioids, and using them properly for chronic pain diseases, I'd really like any advice or experience. I don't want to fuck this up for me now or down the road.
Thanks,
Lucy