I get this urge to fuck guys I don't know very well. I don't think it's "self-destructive" but sometimes I feel a little crazed when I do it. Either way, it's fun most of the time...guys in their 30's are the best. I've just been on a fuck binge lately...
Urges you cannot suppress are often caused by frontal lobe disturbances. This is part of the thing of ADD. Naysayers can deny ADD but frontal lobe disturbances are real and treatable with amphetamines. Unless these urges please u. Then keep it up.