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Alcohol Vodka, sober and having an awakening!!

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Been awake 23 hours, on taurine, caffine but otherwise sober!! And just had an awakening flashback that vodka is the devils urine! I used to a few years back drink vodka by the pint and a fair few (u.k. measures) nowadays just a little rum, the awakening which has renforced the soberity from drinking vodka that it turned me into a pissed, barbrawling, mouthy, and slight manslag (too many one night stands, in alleys and back of clubs etc) it ruined relationships and work. Cant drink anyother spirit nowadays other than a little irish cream, four pack of beer, or small bottle of rum, the vague and vulgar memories of vodka hit me hard again about ten minitues ago, and no blasphmey intended thank christ i feel sick just at the sight of vodka, no going back there, a shitty little place that defenietly f.u.b.a.r. my life a few years back. I can take comfort with drinking rum as i never get violent, moody or let go of decency and inhabitions. If your in the same boat with vodka or other as i was, the only advice i can give is look hard at yourself and see the light at the end of the tunnel and stay focused and make tracks to stop necking the devils urine, i dont want to sound like an unaware preacher but there is hope when the damage it does hits a pinniacle of $!&t and grossness, it took me ages too realise and at first i thought it was hard but light triumphes over darkness, yes i admidit i do still drink but only booze that i know doesnt send me off my rocker, if your in the place i was with vodka or gin and absinthe etc, and are starting to question its so called positives when your starting to realise the negatives, stay strong, heaven beats hell, you can progress through and off anytype of alcahol that f.u.b.a.r. your life, work relationships and not neccesriarly in that order, i do smoke crack, sniff cocane occasionly pop.pills and have a couple of shots of rum but its nothing as bad as i was with vodka and most other spirits, i was constantly getting arrested due to vodka and absnithe, jager bombs tequila, and it took years for some stupid reason to wake up to the damage, i havent been arrested for any drunk and disorderly etc for at least 9 years, if your in the stage i was in starting to realise how shitty things were getting, your there ! Goal achived you got passed the first hurdle, next keep the negative vibes of what the wrong type of alcahol can do and cement them in your mind, you will progress, i know hombres who were the same and they woke up and got level and kept off anything that was destructive. Rant over and the best of luck to you!!🙏
 
Vodka is shit actually. Was myself for a while on vodka because I thought its clean ethanol. But mostly its mixed with soft drinks because it taste pure simply nasty like some industry stuff. I found out that Raki is much better. Turkish Raki has 45% alcohol and needs to be mixed only with water. And it tastes good just with water. Raki feels much more comfy no hangover. I used to drink a 50cl bottle on an evening not more not less. Was perfect amount for me. Started at 7pm earliest.. no alcohol before 7PM. It's more than enough. Even the fact no soft drinks needed was so good. That whole damn sugar is destroying you too.
 
I’ve myself experienced quite consistent differences with certain alcohols but been told it’s “bullshit” but anecdotally even with the same or wildly different circumstances I’d find the following

Gin- always ends in tears

Vodka- nasty and depraved

Wine- either excellence or complete depravity, dice roll. Red being more consistent than white.

Cider-mong, binge eat and feel always the worst the next day

Sambuca and Rum- generally the most consistent, uplifting and sociable. I know most despair aniseed but I fucking loved it with Sambuca,

But it had a worse hangover than rum. Plus rum and coke (diet or your an absolute animal) is a classic for a reason.

At my worst I could bang a 70cl or even a few shots more of Spiced Rum, and after two Lucozade Originals in the morning it’d be like nothing happened.
 
Vodka is shit actually. Was myself for a while on vodka because I thought its clean ethanol. But mostly its mixed with soft drinks because it taste pure simply nasty like some industry stuff. I found out that Raki is much better. Turkish Raki has 45% alcohol and needs to be mixed only with water. And it tastes good just with water. Raki feels much more comfy no hangover. I used to drink a 50cl bottle on an evening not more not less. Was perfect amount for me. Started at 7pm earliest.. no alcohol before 7PM. It's more than enough. Even the fact no soft drinks needed was so good. That whole damn sugar is destroying you too.

I agree vodka isn't clean as people make it out. I know people say the clear liquors give you less hangover but in my experience, drinking scotch or bourbon gave me less hangover than vodka. I've read the aging process effects your hangover and the char in the wood of the barrels absorbs some of the toxins. Vodka is not aged.
 
I’ve myself experienced quite consistent differences with certain alcohols but been told it’s “bullshit” but anecdotally even with the same or wildly different circumstances I’d find the following

Gin- always ends in tears

Vodka- nasty and depraved

Wine- either excellence or complete depravity, dice roll. Red being more consistent than white.

Cider-mong, binge eat and feel always the worst the next day

Sambuca and Rum- generally the most consistent, uplifting and sociable. I know most despair aniseed but I fucking loved it with Sambuca,

But it had a worse hangover than rum. Plus rum and coke (diet or your an absolute animal) is a classic for a reason.

At my worst I could bang a 70cl or even a few shots more of Spiced Rum, and after two Lucozade Originals in the morning it’d be like nothing happened.
Agreed with that factual and honest statement same here, just having rum at the moment, AND still no cocaine since my last post that I have stopped using it, had cravings, went into delirium for four days without sleeping but focused. 🙏To you
 
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Agreed with that factual and honest statement, just having rum at the moment, AND still no cocaine since my last post that I have stopped using it, had cravings, went into delirium for four days without sleeping but focused. 🙏To you
Fair play to you for being to have a drink and not get on the Bag. I’ve heard it’s a big trigger.

Stimulants recreationally seem not unlike opioids in the chase, a dead end. A fleeting feeling always trying to be replicated.

Proud of you.
 
Been awake 23 hours, on taurine, caffine but otherwise sober!! And just had an awakening flashback that vodka is the devils urine! I used to a few years back drink vodka by the pint and a fair few (u.k. measures) nowadays just a little rum,
Rum once drunk is like a sweetened thing like Apfelcorn.
Cachache is made from sugar cane juice, not sugarcane, way better,

But ime a good Vodka Ukrainian and Finland beats Rum imo
Or Tequila, Agave, +going for Caffein and l-Theanine now. Matcha
 
Ethanol is ethanol.

Everybody prefers some forms of it over others, and there are considerable differences in the strength & quality of the various libations available.

But the bottom line is that alcohol is a nasty drug. It's a toxic substance and the more you drink of it the more toxic it is.
 
Been awake 23 hours, on taurine, caffine but otherwise sober!! And just had an awakening flashback that vodka is the devils urine! I used to a few years back drink vodka by the pint and a fair few (u.k. measures) nowadays just a little rum, the awakening which has renforced the soberity from drinking vodka that it turned me into a pissed, barbrawling, mouthy, and slight manslag (too many one night stands, in alleys and back of clubs etc) it ruined relationships and work. Cant drink anyother spirit nowadays other than a little irish cream, four pack of beer, or small bottle of rum, the vague and vulgar memories of vodka hit me hard again about ten minitues ago, and no blasphmey intended thank christ i feel sick just at the sight of vodka, no going back there, a shitty little place that defenietly f.u.b.a.r. my life a few years back. I can take comfort with drinking rum as i never get violent, moody or let go of decency and inhabitions. If your in the same boat with vodka or other as i was, the only advice i can give is look hard at yourself and see the light at the end of the tunnel and stay focused and make tracks to stop necking the devils urine, i dont want to sound like an unaware preacher but there is hope when the damage it does hits a pinniacle of $!&t and grossness, it took me ages too realise and at first i thought it was hard but light triumphes over darkness, yes i admidit i do still drink but only booze that i know doesnt send me off my rocker, if your in the place i was with vodka or gin and absinthe etc, and are starting to question its so called positives when your starting to realise the negatives, stay strong, heaven beats hell, you can progress through and off anytype of alcahol that f.u.b.a.r. your life, work relationships and not neccesriarly in that order, i do smoke crack, sniff cocane occasionly pop.pills and have a couple of shots of rum but its nothing as bad as i was with vodka and most other spirits, i was constantly getting arrested due to vodka and absnithe, jager bombs tequila, and it took years for some stupid reason to wake up to the damage, i havent been arrested for any drunk and disorderly etc for at least 9 years, if your in the stage i was in starting to realise how shitty things were getting, your there ! Goal achived you got passed the first hurdle, next keep the negative vibes of what the wrong type of alcahol can do and cement them in your mind, you will progress, i know hombres who were the same and they woke up and got level and kept off anything that was destructive. Rant over and the best of luck to you!!🙏
Also it turned me into thieving, fucking skanky cunt on alcohol I was..
But never stole for cocaine or stole anything on cocaine, only booze had me stealing for it and on it. Have to admit cocaine was a cleaner drug than copious alcohol glad nowadays I have an occasional light
drink and no more. It makes me sad that too much and the wrong type of booze can effect.
 
Been awake 23 hours, on taurine, caffine but otherwise sober!! And just had an awakening flashback that vodka is the devils urine! I used to a few years back drink vodka by the pint and a fair few (u.k. measures) nowadays just a little rum, the awakening which has renforced the soberity from drinking vodka that it turned me into a pissed, barbrawling, mouthy, and slight manslag (too many one night stands, in alleys and back of clubs etc) it ruined relationships and work. Cant drink anyother spirit nowadays other than a little irish cream, four pack of beer, or small bottle of rum, the vague and vulgar memories of vodka hit me hard again about ten minitues ago, and no blasphmey intended thank christ i feel sick just at the sight of vodka, no going back there, a shitty little place that defenietly f.u.b.a.r. my life a few years back. I can take comfort with drinking rum as i never get violent, moody or let go of decency and inhabitions. If your in the same boat with vodka or other as i was, the only advice i can give is look hard at yourself and see the light at the end of the tunnel and stay focused and make tracks to stop necking the devils urine, i dont want to sound like an unaware preacher but there is hope when the damage it does hits a pinniacle of $!&t and grossness, it took me ages too realise and at first i thought it was hard but light triumphes over darkness, yes i admidit i do still drink but only booze that i know doesnt send me off my rocker, if your in the place i was with vodka or gin and absinthe etc, and are starting to question its so called positives when your starting to realise the negatives, stay strong, heaven beats hell, you can progress through and off anytype of alcahol that f.u.b.a.r. your life, work relationships and not neccesriarly in that order, i do smoke crack, sniff cocane occasionly pop.pills and have a couple of shots of rum but its nothing as bad as i was with vodka and most other spirits, i was constantly getting arrested due to vodka and absnithe, jager bombs tequila, and it took years for some stupid reason to wake up to the damage, i havent been arrested for any drunk and disorderly etc for at least 9 years, if your in the stage i was in starting to realise how shitty things were getting, your there ! Goal achived you got passed the first hurdle, next keep the negative vibes of what the wrong type of alcahol can do and cement them in your mind, you will progress, i know hombres who were the same and they woke up and got level and kept off anything that was destructive. Rant over and the best of luck to you!!🙏
trust me, not realizing that early, doesn't turn out very well.( not as expected)
good luck
 
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