Ventilator

[Mysticalis]

Go ahead, point the finger
You were right
I was wrong
I was wrong to believe I was different
You were right to believe I was like everyone else
I broke a loving heart, this you and I know
But a part of mine went with it too
Then again, what does it matter?
I'm an ass-hole, aren't I?
I'm not supposed to feel anything, am I?
I'm not supposed to care, right?
Keep pointing that finger
Let me know how evil I am for what I did
Your accusations don't matter anymore
There's only one choice remaining
Should I continue feeling the guilt and try to change?
Or should I just blow it all off?
Let you win, and give you the satisfaction
Of me being wrong about myself?
I think I'll let you win this battle
Because I don't care what you think anymore
Fuck kindness if there's expectations
Of keeping this feeling all day every day
It's time for a retrogression
To the days where I walked alone
And didn't need the bullshit of gossip and hypocrites
So you see, you may have won this battle
But I'm going to win this war
As I retrogress to a mindset long dormant
Cold, isolated, and apathetic
The perfect soldier
[ 18 August 2002: Message edited by: Mysticalis ]

 

[Bi KaNd*E* RaVeR]

:'(
...*sigh*
no words..just tears