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Vent/Rant Thread vs I'll tell you how I really feel (Triggering Content)

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Maya said:
^Smiley faces? Yeah I'd be annoyed too tbh, does he not want to chat with you or something and just makes the reply short?


Maybe for the birth control your body is just going through some type of withdrawal? I know for sure that my body hates birth control pills so I don't use them.
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Yeah like I'll say something and then he will reply with a stupid ":-)". Like okay I get it HES HAPPY but I'm not.

I need to be on bcp because I have PMDD...so now that I don't have the hormones to stabilize my body just hates me for it and I'm just so angry. Ah I wonder if an urgent care can prescribe them...
 
^Try it and see if it that works I hope you get the prescription asap.

Lol I actually tell my bf off if he says something really annoying I just couldnt stand some of his childish talking but he's gotten better now. Maybe you need to tell him off too lol!!
 
The brief replies from a woman drive me insane. As well, I hate always feeling like I am the one to initiate conversation. I am a verbose person who likes to talk a lot about life and my beliefs. If I don't feel like a woman can challenge me intellectually, then I cannot be happy around her.
 
I feel like I'm going to vomit because I'm so stressed out right now. I wish I could just go with the flow, but my anxiety makes everything a lot worse than it actually is. My best friend is coming to pick me up tomorrow and I'll be going home for the first time in almost four months. Feels weird. Maybe I'll just cancel this plan all together, but I can't. Fuck. I need to grab all my shit though at least that I didn't manage to pick up before if I decide to not stay and then I can say goodbye to Pennsylvania probably for good. My lease with the apartment is up down there and my mom is taking it over right now.... either way I do not want to re-lease with that place even if I do decide to stay down in PA, but I think that would be a bad idea. I don't want to go backwards... I want to move forward.
 
^ i'll be doing that in a day or so when it hits here. I gotta put a new pin in my auger though because I broke it last week during another storm.
I've gotten so much snow this year it's not fun anymore. My kids like playing in it. I hate cleaning it up lol. I do it for my grandparents. I was even shoveling with a boxers fracture a few weeks ago (it's still not healed fully).
It's actually not that cold where i am right now.. it will be soon though.
What's the temp where you are?
 
it has been the coldest winter ever on record.. right now its 7F which is actually pretty warm... since the end of december I think we have had something like 60 days with below 0F temps.. I dont know the exact amount as I stopped counting at around 50 days. the mere thought of spring is oragasmic.
 
It's a little better here, todays high will be 27F.
Can't wait till spring either.. and summer.
Was sick for a year and did nothing all last year besides feel like shit, hardly went outside. Gotta make up for it this year hopefully, as long as i can keep my life together. *Fingers Crossed*
 
Allein said:
How do you experience them CH, are they the pounding heart type of thing or the 'everything is god dam scary' types that I trend to get
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Not often.

They were related to a nightmare I had. Very unpleasant.

I had a very vivid series of dreams last night but they weren't disturbing and I felt were "acceptable" but weird. As long as it can stay like this I think I'll be happy.
 
Haha, seriously, fuck winter. These pass few months in Chicago have been absolutely miserable. I can't wait for it to become habitable outside again.
 
It would be great if I could access my mailbox from the sidewalk but there's more than two feet of snow built up. Now I have to get it from the street side. I just slipped on the ice and fell into some dog poo. Thanks dog-walking neighbor whoever you are! :!
 
Just about eery part of my face is hurting right now and there's no hot water to top it off :)
I don't know how but I find this humorous, like I give no shits anymore and I'm brushing it all aside.
 
Ugh, it seems like the days that have measured above freezing have been SO few and far between. You know things are bad when you check the weather and go, "oh, the high is 28, that's almost 30!" Haha, this winter really needs to end.
 
sarcophagus.heels said:
Ugh, it seems like the days that have measured above freezing have been SO few and far between. You know things are bad when you check the weather and go, "oh, the high is 28, that's almost 30!" Haha, this winter really needs to end.
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43f here right now, it really hasn't been colder here this year than like 35f or so.
 
I'm in New England and it's been pretty f'n cold, but i feel bad for people in Chi-town and Detroit and that whole area.. was watching the weather channel this morning and I think the wind chill was around -20 to -30F in that area. Holy shit. Keep warm peeps. I'm supposed to be getting snow tomorrow. Not much though. (I hope).
 
I'm really stressed right now n I don't know what to do anymore. Not only am I in £5,000 debt with the bank but ive been told that my s
Disability benefit is stopping in June because you can only have it for 360 days with the new system. Ive got a child n I don't know how I'm going to be able to survive n will have to stop my masters because I just can't afford it. Every time I try to sort myself out with the bank I get £166 charges n it's like a vicious circle.

I wish I'd never touched opiates because they have ruined everything. I was warned this would happen but no I was stupid n I know people will have a good laugh that im going through this n say I brought it on myself n am a stupid lazy bitch but it's time i really admit ive gone out of control n need help.

Sorry i want to the one that helps others n having to ask for help like this n making a complete n utter fool of myself.

Evey
 
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