lazylazyjoe
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Why is it everyone else gets to die but me, ... angers me beyond belief.
I always die in my dreams, but never for real..
I always die in my dreams, but never for real..
Yes, the using kept me falsely level for a long time.. I hear you… What I loved was also killing me mentally.
I would seriously advocate for a new doctor. I was passed off to a nurse practitioner when I got covered california. I called them right up and complained… Now have an internist… that works with me.
I've used Mirtazapine. I know what you mean, I felt that until my system adjusted, but it depends on the individual… Don't give up… Maybe call and ask if you can give it a go again, and request a psychiatrist…
Hey CH,
How are you today?
Are you feeling better. Why do you want to hurt yourself? Is that because of your thoughts?
Keep me posted please
Thanks,
Erik
Just feel like getting a bag of brown cos i think im going mental without it....fuck this sobriety crap
Thanks Smoky, I truly hope I´m not.
I´ve been treated for depression and it worked, although I had problems with gaining weight but solved.
The thing is about methadone. The doctor says I need to use it for years as this was the only way I really got clean.
And very near to what i call normal life. It´s as normal as it can be.
Is that something wrong with this treatment that I am missing?
I´m safe when using lower doses of methadone. Meaning too close to have a normal life.
The cost benefit has been balanced. And unfortunately the benefits are too much greater...
Most people seem to disagree, do you know why?
Erik
Hi Erik,
It seems like methadone is working for you right now, from what you mention. Are you considering tapering it … from what most people are saying to you? Who is saying this? You feel it's unfortunate about the benefits you are receiving from mmt?
It's truly up to you, whatever works for you is the bottom line. Some as you say do have negative side effects. I'm glad you are not experiencing that.
Smoky
I am very depressed
I can't seem to do anything right
I am very depressed
I can't seem to do anything right
fuck man I'm scaredshit man,
I feel for ya. I used to work in a liquor store when I was younger. I'll never forget the poor people that would come into the store (usually after a weekend) trying their best to control their incredible shakes. I would watch them get into their vehicle and take those first few sips, and I would watch their shaking stop.
Sometimes I believe it takes a lot more than will power to beat a disease like that.
Wish you the best. Cutting down should help.
DwE, when I look at your picture in the photo thread, I know you can beat this thing. Don't let fatalism direct your thoughts. Fatalism is like a drug--it delivers a brief and temporary release from fear. Your fear is real, it's directing you to listen and to act. You always have three choices with fear: you can live with it by constantly pushing it down, you can run from it or you can make it your teacher and learn from it. I look at that picture and hope with all my heart that you find a way to part ways with alcohol. Sincerely.
And in my petty world......We just had a huge two day storm and my art studio flooded....AGAIN. I'm getting too old for this shit.