I'm so exhausted, this whole week has been a head fuck and we are only on day 4. Had 40 minutes sleep last night/ this morning. I'm such a fucking idiot. I can't explain anything... I just want to sleep but I fucking cant, I'rational, have done everything to try and calm myself down, but my heart just won't stop racing, it's been 150bpm+ plus for hours. Just had a bad panic attack, heart rate was like 180. Argh. Other symptoms which are making me paranoid as fuck- numbness in hands, pins and needles, shaking, fever, constant jerking and spasming muscles including eyes.. So dizzy/ out of it shdn I get up.. I'm just a floating head. No spatial awareness. Slight visual distortions. Heart rate about 140-150.
I haven't taken anything in 12 hours but its not going away. I've had withdrawals, comedowns before, but this one has really bitch slapped me straight in the face. I'm so scared and paranoid about having a seizure, shaking so hard.. I need to just find out the odds of me having one, But the thought is makingmy heart tighten up and now, panic attack. This must sound pretty whiny, sorry. trying to block it out, keep to myself and ride it out.