Vent/Rant Thread 1 (POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING)

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PIP-- Wow, you really know your shit. Hell, I had a hard time in a professional kitchen, and you're a solid head taller than me.

I'm leaning toward a small place, where I'd do pretty well everything. Small as in four tables, two seatings each a night. Either that, or a small, hip café with a great beer and wine list and some funky food. And in the back of my mind, I still have the idea of a vegetarian/vegan 'fast food' place for downtown. That's the riskiest, by a large margin (I live in BEEF country), but if I could pull it off and get to the point of franchising, I'll pull back, be a shareholder, and can have the leisure to run any other restaurant I like. At a loss even.

The ideas are there, but the follow-through isn't. I'm not a detail person, and tend to get killed by them.

My vent:

[Thought better of it. Sorry]
 
I recently vented in my blog about how I'm being harrassed by the local cops... "random license checks" and shit like that. Well, I kinda got back at one of them yesterday. I was filling up my car at a gas station, and noticed a female officer filling up her patrol car across the court. I shouted out "Cop! That uniform makes you look fat!"
 
^ Yeah, good thing she ignored me. I could have been arrested for "disorderly conduct".
 
ocean-- That's why I'm hesitant to open my own restaurant. I love cooking, like nothing else in the world, but I fear that if I have to do it for a living it'll just become work. Then what?

Out of curiousity what kind of restaurant would you open?

Have you worked in a restaurant or in the food business before?


My mom remarried to my stepdad when I was 7. He's been in the food business for 40+ years now, his dad was in it as well. I've been working at his business, which is a banquet hall and catering place, since I was 13, (eleven years now!8o). After the years of doing various jobs there (cleanup, setup, taking care of the front grounds/lawn, office, dishwasher, kitchen, dropoffs, outings, etc.), I will say that I would never want to own a restaurant or catering place.

Now a restaurant is different than a banquet hall in a number of ways, but there's still really crappy hours, loads of competition, and so many different headaches to worry about that I don't feel like listing them.

Not trying to sway you away from opening up a restaurant if it's a dream of yours or something, but saying it's a lot of work is still an understatement. Like I said crappy hours too. I very rarely have Friday and Saturday night off and during busier months, won't have either night off. The amount of hours I get week to week is really inconsistent too. Was there from 6:30pm-1:50am tonight, which made me miss any chance of going out.
 
Grrr... I have an alcoholic friend staying at my place for the weekend, trying to detox. I've suggested rehab, etc., but she says she's not into that. I don't know what 2 days at my place is supposed to achieve, but I'm trying to be a good friend and help as much as I can. She's already starting to outstay her welcome though. I caught her trying to drink methylated spirits in the garage this afternoon, so I've offered her some of my diazepam to help with the withdrawals. I just hope she doesn't go through the whole bottle. :\
 
PIP-- Wow, you really know your shit. Hell, I had a hard time in a professional kitchen, and you're a solid head taller than me.

I'm leaning toward a small place, where I'd do pretty well everything. Small as in four tables, two seatings each a night. Either that, or a small, hip café with a great beer and wine list and some funky food. And in the back of my mind, I still have the idea of a vegetarian/vegan 'fast food' place for downtown. That's the riskiest, by a large margin (I live in BEEF country), but if I could pull it off and get to the point of franchising, I'll pull back, be a shareholder, and can have the leisure to run any other restaurant I like. At a loss even.

The ideas are there, but the follow-through isn't. I'm not a detail person, and tend to get killed by them.

My vent:

[Thought better of it. Sorry]

I think there aren't enough places like that. They're small enough they can spend extra attention to detail. And I love the idea of unique wines and beers. I'm a huge fan of buying local microbrews.
 
Grrr... I have an alcoholic friend staying at my place for the weekend, trying to detox. I've suggested rehab, etc., but she says she's not into that. I don't know what 2 days at my place is supposed to achieve, but I'm trying to be a good friend and help as much as I can. She's already starting to outstay her welcome though. I caught her trying to drink methylated spirits in the garage this afternoon, so I've offered her some of my diazepam to help with the withdrawals. I just hope she doesn't go through the whole bottle. :\

It's tough having friends that have no problem crossing the line. I've had a few roommates like that.
 
^ It's getting worse. She's now wanting to share my bed tonight cos she "scared of having a seizure during the night." I'm not really up for that, so I guess I'll be sleeping on the floor. She's also complaining that she won't be able to sleep cos of her alcohol-related jitters, so I've offered her one of my 5mg Haldol tablets. That should knock her out and stop the complaints. :)
 
I can't hold a relationship. I can't even HAVE a relationship. The minute a guy I like shows interest, I immediately become uninterested. I have too many self-esteem issues and am too self-conscious to fathom the idea that someone worthwhile might actually be interested in me, so I assume that there is something wrong with him or he is playing me or using me for something. I'm terrified of intimacy because I'm afraid that I will get attached and he will leave and I will be devastated. My motto is get them before they get you I guess. It is a super depressing and lonely way to live. I'm tired of it.
 
^You WILL find the right one, kc. Someone is waiting for you, you just don't know him yet (or maybe you already do). Life is full of surprises. You're a beautiful and intelligent woman and any guy would be lucky to have you in his life. <3 Your relationship with yourself must be your first priority. I promise you there are worse things in life than being single. Like bad relationships and foolish men! Until Mr. kc makes his presence known (and he will), you've got your job, your education, and your shit together. Keep up the good work, lady, it'll pay off more than wanky, contrived dates. <3

My rant: since I cut way down on the drinking and benzos (good thing) I'm paying the price with a total lack of concentration. Usually I write so much as an outlet and have loads of pen pals, near and far. I've been super busy but damnit, I'm glued to my crackberry and I have no freaking excuse. I'll take further discussion to the alcoholism thread on that. For now I'm forcing myself to write for half an hour, and then taking a lovely, long shower and selecting a stylish outfit for a party tonight. :)
 
I can't hold a relationship. I can't even HAVE a relationship. The minute a guy I like shows interest, I immediately become uninterested. I have too many self-esteem issues and am too self-conscious to fathom the idea that someone worthwhile might actually be interested in me, so I assume that there is something wrong with him or he is playing me or using me for something. I'm terrified of intimacy because I'm afraid that I will get attached and he will leave and I will be devastated. My motto is get them before they get you I guess. It is a super depressing and lonely way to live. I'm tired of it.
Same here. I've been offered sex by people I didn't really know at all even and turned it down every time because of self-esteem. Still a virgin though it's nothing to be embarrassed about for me. It seems to be universal in human experience to encounter an intimate relationship regardless of who you are though. Best thing to do is just put it out of your mind and wait for that inevitable day to come. I don't even care anymore personally and I'm glad I no longer do.

My brother told me the other day that I am smart enough to realize my mental illness does not exist, nor do any other. He discovered Christ apparently, and knowing him, it's out of insecurity from a crisis he's having. Baptist uncle also said the same fucking thing essentially. Not bashing Christians as a whole but seriously, that's taking it too far especially with the actual scientific proof of reduction in gray matter/changes in receptor levels/etc.
 
CL: Not too sure yet. I have a couple of ideas, but probably something slanting toward a cool little café with solid but clever food. Casual, but still good quality. In a good location, which will be tough to find here. Ideally with a patio of some sort, but in my city there isn't much of a patio culture. And a couple of molecular gastronomy bits here and there, to keep my chemistry itch well scratched.

Yeah, I've worked in a restaurant. It was a mid-level chain, and it was fun but it fucked my hands up. I promised myself that the next kitchen that I would work in would be my own, but realistically I know that I'm going to have to work in someone else's place to learn the business far better. Oh, and I know the hours suck. It took me four years to get my sleep schedule back to 'normal' after working a year of weekend and some weekday evening shifts. I'm a night person, but more in that I'd rather have my leisure time at night, sleep during the day, and not work at all ideally :)

In a perfect world, I'd like to make my fortune first, and then open the restaurant, but recent developments at work are pushing me in that direction sooner than I'd like. Thing is, I don't want to take the pay cut. I make a good wage right now, and would be looking at bringing in around 40% of what I currently make even if I'm working full time for someone else. That's nothing to say of the pay cut that I would be taking when I open my own place.

KC-- I'm in a similar boat. In my case, as the male usually is expected to make the first move, if I'm attracted to someone I assume that they couldn't possibly reciprocate, and just distance myself. Ugh.
 
(triple-posting cos at least one of the others will prob be deleted)

FYI to anyone trying with ibuprofen pills - they SUCK for CWE.

I bought a 48 pack of Chemmart Ibuprofen Plus Codeine (200mg/12.8mg)


Now, the first thing strange I noticed when crushing the pills: they were coated in some kind of paper (???)

Second thing I noticed when filtering: VERY cloudy solution = significant amount of ibuprofen left in the mix


I just downed the mixture 5 mins ago and it had the classic bitter codeine taste, nothing else really not like paracetamol which you can REALLY taste if you don't filter properly. I ran a little experiement before chugging just to make sure I wasn't taking a lethal dose of ibu. It's happened before and unlike the paracet which can kill you many many hours later, the ibu just caused me to power-chuck like nothin' else. Very unpleasant, but better than dying.

It doesn't happen right away, it'll usually happen (vomiting) much much later. Sorry I haven't exactly kept an accurate record of how many hours after ingestion BUT I'll take the solution, be high for however many hours (cannabis assisted) then fall asleep at some point. I'll then wake up at some point, probably mid-way during my sleep cycle if that makes sense, run outside or to the nearest suitable container and expell said poison.


For the record I've been doing CWE method for 2+ years on a regular (weekly) basis. I've more of less perfected the technique but I've never used just straight ibu pills before. To be honest I added extra water to the solution when dissolving the tablets before I read ibu can clog your filters so that may have had a part to play, but part of me thinks maybe the pharm companies are catching on (or being forced) so they manufacture the product in such a way to make it harder for opiate heads to extract the drug.

There's a really cheap brand going around, chemist own perhaps, in South Australia which are yellow tablets and I stopped using them a few months after I started using high dose codeine mixtures because no matter how much you filtered or whatever you'd end up with a foul tasting AND smelling solution with a weird chalky-like property to it.


ANYWAY, this mix I drank 5-10 mins ago however long it's taken me to type this is starting to come on and granted it's nice but no where near the rush I was expecting. If I'd done this with otc paracetamol and codeine pills I'd be a lot happier and higher.

:)



I used to buy boxes of 96 paracet/codiene (500/10) do a CWE and just down the whole lot. Only when I couldn't get MS Contin tabs of course .. heh heh heh heh morphine is way better .. until my method of extraction just naturally got better with experience and I ended up in the ER twice for massive codeine overdose. (whoops!) You feel shaky and scared as all hell until you're in a bed with that drip in your arm cos you know if anything bad happens there's a ton of medical staff around to quickly revive you. You can just lay back and enjoy the high.

But yeah, my tolerance has gone way down since I stopped using regularly so DON'T try and do a 96 box all at once unless you really understand your body and how opiates will affect it. Even with a high tolerance, close to a gram of codeine at once is HUGE for anyone. I don't do it anymore.

Sorry about the rant lol I'll stop now :D my opiate high is starting!



Im thinking of doing my first CWE on some 8/500 codeine/APAP tablets and need a bit of extra info as its pretty hard to find what im looking for in the search bar.

1. If my tablets contain only APAP and codeine, should the water i extract be 100% clear?

2. if im using 20 tablets which works out at 10000mg APAP and 160mg Codeine, how much APAP should i expect to filter through into my solution? will it be a safe ammount?

3. Will 2 Paper towells or 2 sheets of kitchen roll be a decent filter?

4. Do i have to do the freezer stage or can i just use cold water? I read on another thread that all i have to do is use cold water and filter it through, Is this true or is it dangerous?

Thanks, any info will be appreciated alot

Nolys

PS - In reply to OP I use womens anklet stockings I found at the supermarket to filter my shit. They're cotton, very fine and re-usable, washable and filter a hell of a lot faster than coffee filters with near-perfect results. As stated already, coffee filters take WAY too long.

If you've never done a CWE before expect to end up with just over half the amount of codeine in your final flitered solution that you had in the pills. Over time you'll get better and get closer to 70-80% with your first filtration but you can never really get all the codeine out. Some people filter the gunk up to 4 times again to get every last drop out but once you're well experienced in the CWE arts you can probably expect and 75% in your final solution with only one filtration.
 
you know im withdrawing right now i dont get why you gotta fuck with me so much. you know when i get a fucking panic attack you promised to always be there to comfort me. bitch then explain the 7 times i texteed you asking for help and saying stuff like 'im begging you' 4 times and 'please' 17 times, you just replied random shit to them. i needed to see you. but fuck you then. cut myself and went back to oxys instead. thatll always be there for me.

you think your hot stuff for ignoring me? i dont get it. it hurts
 
My fiancee has anger issues and i'm sick of him cracking the shits at me and then giving me the silent treatment for upto 2 weeks. It's hard enough having to walk on eggshells when we ARE talking, but when we're not, it's so tense and uncomfortable.

He doesn't support me in anything I want to do, he always basically says flat out that i'm too lazy or laughs at me. I support him in everything he does and let him do whatever he wants to do. I spend all of my money on beer and smokes for him and am extremely understanding and I don't nag him, but I don't get any of that in return. I want to be able to vent to him or tell him something he did pissed me off without it going and going for 2 weeks! I don't even know why he's not talking to me right now and it's like I fucked up! How can I fuck up if I don't know why he's mad?

I just want someone who'll randomly hug me, tell me what he is thinking, kiss me, support me and not talk to me like i'm an idiot. I tell any of my friends in positions like this to get out, but that makes me a hypocrite because i'm in it and love him too much to leave..

I don't think i'm asking for too much, or am i?
 
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