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Vent/Rant Thread 1 (POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING)

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I don't understand why everything bad has to happen at once. So much bad shit has happened this week, it just piles up like a fucking traffic jam.

I can't concentrate on any of my school work, and I'm really behind. I have a test and I've read 1 of 5 chapters. All I want to do it lie in bed and watch Mad Men.
 
^this is outstanding, everyone i know, several random people i have spoken with, and several posts here are saying the same, or experiencing it rather...ive been waiting for more people to mention this, with more detail to then look at some astrological aspects, but, its been long enough.
 
Hmm I would have liked a warning on this week (maybe the last too) "The moons are soon to align for SHIT to happen. Seriously."
 
Boy what a stressful 2 weeks, probably the worst I've ever had. But things are looking up, went out to breakfast with the family and I get to see my really good friend today, hopefully get some herb for next friday because i have school off. My teacher gave me the weekend to finish my assignment, so my english grade isn't completely f*cked :D Sometimes the weight of the world is all too much, but for everyone in this thread, I'm telling you to keep you head up high.
 
Well i just realized my "bestfriend" is a complete fake. fake as in, tries to be someone who he's not.
i realize its hard to be yourself in highschool but honestly this is just too far. it annoys the absolute shit out of me. i dont give a fuck if you're a nerd or you have odd interests, i just dont want you acting like you're the complete shit in an attempt to impress the "cool kids". having your parents buy you the most expensive clothes and talking about weed 24/7... you might fool a few people but i know the real you and in my eyes you're just emberassing yourself.
i want to stay bestfriends but only if he stops acting like this, and i dont know how to tell him that.


badfish45 said:
Boy what a stressful 2 weeks, probably the worst I've ever had. But things are looking up, went out to breakfast with the family and I get to see my really good friend today, hopefully get some herb for next friday because i have school off. My teacher gave me the weekend to finish my assignment, so my english grade isn't completely f*cked :D Sometimes the weight of the world is all too much, but for everyone in this thread, I'm telling you to keep you head up high.
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glad things are getting better dude! :)
 
^ they really have gotten better, except the parents caught me smoking the herb. The only reason I actually will stop is due to the fact they have the names of my friends who deal to me, and they threatened to fuck them over if I get caught. So it's time to make smoking an occasional thing again, it's going to suck but whatever, nothing too bad or anything I can't handle. I love my friends more than I do weed, and it won't be long before it's only the law riding my ass about smoking (if it happens to not be legal by the time I'm 18 ).
 
Fyasko. said:
Well i just realized my "bestfriend" is a complete fake. fake as in, tries to be someone who he's not.
i realize its hard to be yourself in highschool but honestly this is just too far. it annoys the absolute shit out of me.
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Been there mate...ugh ...leaves a seriously, bad taste alright. <3
 
I am pretty sure I accidentally threw out the pendant my best mate gave me before she died :( It's St Christopher, safe travel, and I always wear it on the plane. I had 2 plane flights the other day so looked for it and I can't find it anywhere. I have a terrible feeling I'd put it in the zip up compartment of my makeup case for safe keeping - but the case got fish guts on it after a fishing mission and I threw it out! It's the only thing I have from her :(

Also, I just knelt on my bed unawares my kindle was under my pyjamas, and cracked the screen! It's ruined. I'm so sad :(:(:(
 
What a horrible excuse of a day...Bureaucracy is driving me nuts!! Am sick of trying when my plans keep on getting thwarted. Have been constantly coming across obstacles and trying to override them but it seems as if anything I try to do, by the correct means, just doesnt work. I hate this place and cannot manage to try maintaining composure with Educational or Government Agencies here anymore; as they clearly dont know their ass from their elbows and dont care either!!! I mean the College is trying to get me to pay more and I wont be able to keep my home or have ANY income. My parents are both Majorly Depressed atm, so I dont want to burden them and Im running out of money and options. :/

To top it off, on my way home some Retard in a suit and a Lexus, started honking his horn behind my car, as I tried to let some traffic pass in front that had been waiting to pass for an Aeon, granted I had right of way to go but I just let one van pass and I have the right of way, so cars who are behind me have to wait by law, unless, doing this poses an imminent hazard, which it certainly didnt!) I swear to krist, I usually dont let my anger take me over but I got out of my car and went up to his window- it took all my power not to go postal- I said/shouted :''What is the problem here!!!?!!!'' He said ''Do you KNOW the rules of the road? I replied ''Do you know courtesey and road etiquette, you ignorant scumbag!?! LEARN SOME!!!!!!! and I went back fast before I got the chance to pull him through his window by the scruff of the neck. I was seriously shaking with rage and upset.
I mean he was only stuck there for a few seconds, the Traffic flow is slow in that stretch of road as there are cars double parked anyway- IT made NO sense at all!!!
Seriously, have driven in some BAD areas of town and NEVER got beeped at or had experienced anyone drive intimidatingly. This posh, arrogant prick just hadnt gotten any from his wife lately and decided to take it out on me- Gutless, Fuck bag!!!! :X

Seriously, I have to try and calm down...am so fucking stressed with things atm I could lose it. Handling the regular stuff is near impossible for me today.
 
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Fucking hell man, getting caught with four 30mg oxy pills last year is still fucking my shit up.

Get caught June 2010. After paying a lawyer and court fees the court gives me a year to do 10 drug classes ($200 for application and evaluation and $350 for 10 classes) and 40 hours of community service.

Complete those things. Lawyer goes to court for me this past Monday so the case can get nollied.

Court says (for whatever reason....clerical error? :?) that I have only 20 of the 40 completed. So today I bring the copy of completion notice to drop off to my lawyer and they tell me that because the bail commishioner is sending me a letter that I'm most likely going to have to go to court just to show them that I completed the community service.

I only have to really be on campus on Tuesday and Thursdays and the court date is on a fucking Thursday. I guess I might be able to not go, but I have to wait until the day before to find out. If I do have to go and don't go, I'll apparently be re-arrested, despite doing all the shit I was supposed to do. :X


This has been a giant waste of time and a giant headache. :!
 
fuck venting atm

break the chain *


many people, will take frustration from lack of control, and look for an escape route, which can easily be finding a way to turn that lack of self control, into anger towards other people, which can cause them "stress" that stems from a lack of control feeling, invasive unwarranted "alien" emotion, that then gives a boost of self esteem to the instigator by allowing ones-self to feel "above", or able to project energy that drains the other, then filling one party with that energy as motivation, and often the then instigated party becomes an instigator -- this is a learned cause and effect.

this simply is 'psychic vampirism' in the kookiest of terms

it comes from one place, but that a long the 'chain of Demand', the Ebb of that Flood can be put to shut.


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this is the same thing that water and electricity do, which we are mostly made up, or helps us understand what we, and our environment is made up of.

we are the same as a puddle of water on the ground.
or a bolt of lightning.
allow this to be understood and then nothing is shocking.

love all and love above all
we are all connected to a "spiders web" but, well see Charlottes Web
 
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-----------i could give less than half of a shit that we're not bestfriends anymore.
you try too hard to be part of the in-crowd anyways. just because you make your parents buy you the nicest most expensive clothes and all you do is talk about drugs doesnt mean people are going to think your cool.
im glad you moved 3 hours away, glad i deleted all the pictures of us and removed you from my facebook, and glad i deleted your number. have fun trying to be cool, if you get there, good for you. just remember you left all the people who legitimitley loved you behind, because you were too afraid to be seen with them, or you were too afraid to be public about similar interests with them-----------

/rant

TDS, i know the majority of you already know this, but for those of you who are unsure- dont try and be someone you're not.
life is only so long, and you cant waste it trying to impress the in-crowd. fuck the in-crowd.
im not saying im an OG and im perfect, im still trying to figure myself out.
but i just lost/gave up on my (ex)bestfriend because he forgot who his real friends were.

i think theres a quote or something about [not losing sight of whats important] but idk.
PiP probably knows haha :)
 
I feel super complainy!


CAN SOMEONE ANSWER THIS FOR ME:

What is confusing about a green arrow on a traffic light?


It's a freaking color coded arrow that is telling you to go and it is literally pointing in the direction to go.
 
/\ I use to complain about shit like that in my mind untill I was fortunate enough to find work at a supermarket (sarcasm).

But one thing I noticed about 99% of people that come into my line is that most people now & days are either

A) always in a rush or
B) always multitasking

or

C) always in a rush because they're always trying to multitask and it winds up slowing them down in the long run because most multitaskers are fucking idiots.

But quick example. Woman was trying to write a check and have a conversation with her dr as she was checking out tonight. Gives me the check, gets off phone, I put the check through, she THEN checks her check book, and notices she does not have the money in her account AFTER she already wrote the fucking check.

I'm not complaining though because things like this happen at least 10,000 times a day just in different forms. Point being the reason that most people are in a rush, is because most people don't know how to slow down and focus on one thing, finish it, then move onto the next thing, finish it. Instead they drive while they're counting their money, texting, smoking a cigarette, drinking a coffee, and then they drive their car right off a bridge and into a river (I wish lol)... but seriously, most people just don't know how to slow down. And because of this it actually winds up slowing them down even more.

Other people then (much smaller amount) are just slow. And no matter how much they multitask they can't accomplish shit. But I just can't explain how many people come into my line everyday and I literally have to tell them "its ok to slow down, because you're less likely to make mistakes that way". Some people actually listen and thank me, most people however get offended. But my point is people really aren't that dumb to read a traffic signal, I try to give them credit now & days cause fact is most people just have no idea how to catch their breath and focus on one fucking thing at a time (OK I'm a liar they are all fucking idiots). Its like 1 out of every 100 people that comes into my line and you can tell they are very deliberate and composed, know exactly what they are doing and will not mutlitask at all. Like they won't answer their phone when they're in line and are just very in tune to what they're doing. THOSE are the people I genuinely consider intelligent people and sometimes I even compliment them on being so "behavoirally organized". Although obviously I don't say it that way its usually an indirect compliment by ridiculing the ones who they are not like.

Anyway yeh thats my rant for the day. I try not to view most people like idiots but fact is most people just do not know how to mentally allot their time or plan one minute to the next. They prefer to do 100 things at once untill they fuck up 100 things at once, then also wind up fuckn up shit for the person thats next to them which is the real bullshit. And its not till they make some massively fucking assanine mistake that they decide to slow down, focus on one thing, finish it, and then get the fuck out of your way. Even I do it too though can't pretend I'm perfect. I mean red lights are the perfect opportunity to start a conversation with a friend through text and forget what the fuck you are doing till the person behind you starts honking his horn. But truth is I'm also very concerned about looking like an idiot in front of people so I am usually not a mutltasker for the most part.

Whole point of this post being that if you are a multitasker by nature then you are also most likely an idiot. And no you can't get away with it because you're "smarter" than most people. Mutlitasking has nothing to do with intelligence. Ok thats not true, it does. As like I said before the ones who genuinely tend to come off smart are the non multitaskers. This is also the reason I love when people will admit to me "I'm a major multitasker" like its something to be proud of for christsake, as the only thing I ever really hear from them is "Im a major idiot". I will usually put my safety goggles on at this point and just prepare for an accident to happen lol. I mean shit even murphys law itself was written by a multitasker. =]
 
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