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Vent/Rant Thread 1 (POTENTIALLY TRIGGERING)

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^He probably doesnt, people usually dont understand exactly what we are feeling/the mix of feelings/thoughts we have but that isnt their fault either. Its painful feeling like nobody understands you. <3
Accepting ourselves is the hardest thing to work on but gives out alot of rewards and it kind of works like a pallindrome; it beomes a little easier to accept others despite our differences-we're all human, there is always some common denominator... it's just trying to find it/create it.
 
zombiesarepeaceful said:
I fucking hate how my roommate points out that I'm smart, that I don't have issues running machines at work, that I have it easy while he struggles to grasp every concept that is introduced to him.

But what he doesn't understand is that I'd kill just to be normal like him.

I'm sick of this pain. I never asked to be a freak.
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you're not a freak dude, you're just unique:)
try and take pride in the fact that you're different, accept it.
normal people are lame!
 
N3o, I only read bits and pieces up there but I'm sorry to hear about your depressing/upsetting night. If you want another ear (eye ;)), feel free to drop me a(nother) PM (and I'll be getting back to your latest PM soon). :)



I hate not being able to refer to my girlfriend as "my girlfriend." I have to constantly watch my wording when talking about our outings so I don't slip up. I don't like referring to her as "my friend" because she's more than that. <3

It's unfortunate that it has to be this way, but until I get out of this house and away from this town, this is how it's gotta be. :(

It sucks too because when I'm talking with people who I trust, there's always this paranoia that what if they mention my girlfriend to somebody who can't know that I have a girlfriend? You know? Urgh.
 
addictivepersona said:
N3o, I only read bits and pieces up there but I'm sorry to hear about your depressing/upsetting night. If you want another ear (eye ;)), feel free to drop me a(nother) PM (and I'll be getting back to your latest PM soon). :)
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Thank you lovely :) <3

addictivepersona said:
I hate not being able to refer to my girlfriend as "my girlfriend." I have to constantly watch my wording when talking about our outings so I don't slip up. I don't like referring to her as "my friend" because she's more than that.

It's unfortunate that it has to be this way, but until I get out of this house and away from this town, this is how it's gotta be. :(

It sucks too because when I'm talking with people who I trust, there's always this paranoia that what if they mention my girlfriend to somebody who can't know that I have a girlfriend? You know? Urgh.
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Oh hun, I didn't know this was the case!! I'm not sure why but I just assumed that you were "out". I can imagine that it is totally exhausting to have to worry about it constantly :(
Is there any way you could start telling people the truth, one by one? I understand the fear of judgement and bad reactions, but would it really be that bad? It is so emotionally-draining to have to keep up the lies, especially to people who know you well e.g. relatives etc. But having said that I can totally understand your reasons for keeping it secret.
*hugs* <3
 
^ I'm certainly not "out" around my home town. It's a very small town and the majority of the people I interact with on a daily basis know my mother--Who says she is okay with gays, but I know she really isn't as I've heard some of the stuff that comes out of her mouth.

So, while I'm living under this roof, I have to keep a lid on it. :-/
 
Lol, I doubt there's one loving bone in her body.

Her and I do not have a good relationship at all. That's the long story made short.

Not to mention if she found out, my brother would be the first to know. And he'd probably kill me. He once blatantly asked me: "Come on, <snip>, are you a faggot?"
 
Oh :(
You're such a beautiful amazing person, I just wish that you could be free to be yourself and to be happy <3
 
^ Aw, thanks n3o. :)

I am happy (I am gay after all :P), but I too wish I could be free to say I have a girlfriend instead of a friend. :-/
 
^There's no need to be proud of either conforming or not conforming with social norms. You are as you are, just being yourself is enough.
 
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