SpanoonapS
Bluelighter
I have a problem... I rarely seek advice, this may be difficult for me.
I suffer from anxiety. I have a creative and artistic mind - I constantly wrap my brain around everything and everyone I encounter. With this, comes racing thoughts. Thoughts regarding death, tragedy, "am I real" and whichever dungeon my mind can wander into. I get so stressed sometimes it effects my physical body. My nerves and muscles get tense, neck pain, acid reflux, etc...
I recently went to the ER for neck/muscle spasms and they prescribed Valium. Now, I consider myself a very "spiritual" person who mostly disregards pharmaceuticals. However, I was in so much pain I took them.
I never felt so good in my life. I felt like my old self again. I was completely aware, present, and free of nervousness. I was happy, talkative, and every other adjective you can think of.
My problem is... I feel like I am somehow doing the wrong thing. Like I should be able to deal with my inner angst on my own. Through meditation or something. I fear that I may not continue to grow and/or evolve my consciousness while under the influence of such a drug. I know this is an odd post and for that I apologize. But I don't know what to do. Help...
I suffer from anxiety. I have a creative and artistic mind - I constantly wrap my brain around everything and everyone I encounter. With this, comes racing thoughts. Thoughts regarding death, tragedy, "am I real" and whichever dungeon my mind can wander into. I get so stressed sometimes it effects my physical body. My nerves and muscles get tense, neck pain, acid reflux, etc...
I recently went to the ER for neck/muscle spasms and they prescribed Valium. Now, I consider myself a very "spiritual" person who mostly disregards pharmaceuticals. However, I was in so much pain I took them.
I never felt so good in my life. I felt like my old self again. I was completely aware, present, and free of nervousness. I was happy, talkative, and every other adjective you can think of.
My problem is... I feel like I am somehow doing the wrong thing. Like I should be able to deal with my inner angst on my own. Through meditation or something. I fear that I may not continue to grow and/or evolve my consciousness while under the influence of such a drug. I know this is an odd post and for that I apologize. But I don't know what to do. Help...