Update

Whoops, fell off a bit on this.

Alots happened though, I'm going through group therapy now, thank god. (it was a bit of a struggle, getting my father to pay for it, hes an asshole, but thats neither here nor there at this point)

I did some vlogging, but it didnt seem too great, I might do the vlog thing again, but once I have access to a decent camera, and a place to setup a background and everything (I'm told your background on your video is the most important feature when vlogging)

Currently, its 6:38am and I can't sleep, and I havent been sleeping normally for the past 2 months.
I've been off dope for almost half a year, marijuana for 2 months, and I still smoke jwh from time to time.
But I'm still having alot of symptoms that one would associate with post acute withdrawal syndrome.
This is due to a wide range of factors, but mostly I dont have a support system thats worth two shits. I'm super isolated, but I'm working to change this actively:
Therapy
I'm going to start going to some meetings (just to meet people, I fucking hate the overall mentality of support groups)
Have some job interviews lined up.

GO ME!!!!
I literally have no one telling me good job or anything, minus my sister.

So, even if you dont really give a shit, I'd appreciate any comments whatsoever!
I could use the attention!
haha

 

****Note to self****

Next time you take psychedelics, ingest them in a ritualized fashion.
I dont plan on taking any psychedelics anytime soon, but.. whenever I do... ritual.

I was reading a report about a reseearcher doing some studies on psilocybin and treating cancer anxiety. Even in the context fo the study hes having his patients ingest in a ritualized style. Interesting, and I'm not sure why I havent tried it yet, oh right, because none of my friends respect psychedelics like I do.
Some of them do, but I'm prolly the only one who truly appreciates their potential, maybe with the exception of a couple of people.

Anyways!

 

I knew a fellow who had rituals for nearly everything. Most notably he had rituals for rolling and smoking joints and cigarettes, brewing coffee, and taking heavy psychs. Seemed to work well for him, and a couple of them looked fun.