Update

So it has been a long time since I've been active on bluelight. It's funny, life just happens and you get busy.

Miss all the old days of Tiny Chat and all the cool people I met.

Retreading through all my old blog post is funny.

Feel like I've grown up a little bit.

Just finished serving out the tail-end of a three year prison sentence.
Infant son died in March less that two months old.
2017 has been a record awful year.
Gotta start looking up tho right?

Figured Id pop by the old MDMA stomping grounds.

Xo.

 

This year really has been SHIT. For me, it starts anew on November 1 and I am setting 2017 on FIRE. If you like, I can add your year to the funeral pyre and welcome Bliss in 2018 for you, as well. Like Babs & Di said, Enough Is Enough Is Enough!!! I'm hurting to hear of your loss but glad to know you made it through your journey and now have it behind you.

 

Oh fuck DILO

 

Damn that sounds horrible! I hope things turn around for you soon.

 

I am so sorry about your son. Nothing can be more horrible. You learn to carry it but sometimes you just have to lay it down and fall apart. I hope you have some safe space to do that. Hit me up via PM if you ever need an ear.

 

He was, is, and always will be fucking awesome. The time I got to spend with him before I got locked up will always be my most cherished memories in life. He fought really fucking hard. He got to come home and be with my family while I couldn't be there. His first heart surgery went good. The people at Cincinnati Children's Hospital were/are fucking awesome. As a person you never think something like this could happen until it happens. You never think about all the families fighting for their kids in places like that. It is heartbreaking and eye-opening.

XO.

 

Oh, man, that picture says it all. The love in your eyes. I know how much it hurts. But I also know I would not trade that love away for anything.

 

Beautiful picture and beautiful baby.